//file oaf self.analysis
++++mood: ansaket
++++feel: masaket pa ren
++listenin: i-you by bamboo
+++++doing: wah!!!!!!
//file oaf self.analysis
im confused.. i cant find myself within me.. it is like i got the wrong body... and when i come to think about it i really cant define love.. i cant define it.. it hurts so much.. i cant define art.. i cant define myself... i feel so alone.. i know i have friends and they are there for me.. but it is just.. i cant find who i am.. i seems the world has turned topsy turvy.. im becoming vain.. im turning bitter.. i dont wanna be like that.. i want to love..
//file itfig reminiscing
we had so many memories together..
i cant count the times you made me happy cause you always did..
i cant count the times you made me cry cause you always wiped my tears..
i cant count the times you caught me cause i always fell..
i cant count the times you made me secure cause you held me in your arms..
i cant count the times you sang to me cause you let me sing my heart out..
i cant count the times we walked together cause you always carried me
most of all
i cant count the times i said i love you cause you always told me i dont love you....
//file oaf pg
nagiiwasan tau.. ayoko ng ganito.. ayokong mawala ka dahil magsisisi ako.. ayokong mawalan ng kaibigan na tulad mo dahil lagi kang nariyan bumabantay kapag tulog ako.. at umaalala kapag may sakit ako.. sana nga lagi na lang akong may sakit para alalahanin mo ako.. kaysa naman ok ang pangangatawan ko pero di mo naman ako pinapansin..
//file music bamboo i-you
i really dunno what love is..
why does this song kill me so bad..
it is like it penetrates but bombards the blood flowing within me
underflame.. dont be afraid.. nothing stronger.. nothing stronger than the soul reviving..
//file oaf mean
huwaw... anggaling ng bamboo.. may puso.... grabe anggaling nila..
naasar ako doon sa ate ni nek nek.. sino ba un si mean.. feeling masayado as if naman maganda siya or what.. yuckster.... salbahe pero kahit na... feel nia naman... tapos epal daw sponge.. as if naman.. baket magaling ka ba kumanta.. wala kang karapatan sabihin na panget ang bamboo.. gusto mo saksakin kita.. ha.. samahan ko pa ng sabunot tpos ishave ko kilay mo.. kapal mo naman.. as if maganda ka.. yuck.. comp sci daw.. feel mo naman.. alam mo ba kung ano ang visual c++ hindi di ba? kc BOBO ka! TANGA! yabang mo! kaya nga mean name mo eh kc you are MEAN
//file oaf jean
grabe tama bang buhusan ako ng ketchup kahit di ko birthday.. alam mo bang 15 times kong shinampoo ang buhok ko bagop mawala ang scent ng ketchup.. ha? ha? inde naman sa personallan pero feel mo naman nakakatuwa.. tama ba un.. at wag ka nga maligo kapag wala kang dalang towel.. baka may thingie pa sa hair mo.. maalaga ako sa buhok no.. di katulad mo.. >:P asar ka naman.. at wag mo nga ako daganan kc nabubuilt ang pressure sa face ko.. di ka ba makapaghintay? epal mo.. antaba taba mo pa naman.. wala akong laban sau noh! duh.... waistline mo 45!!!!!! wenk!
//file oaf pg
nakita mo ako na magulo hair ko
pero ok lang.. kelan ba naging maayos..?
//file bf anne
huwaw close kame... going strong pa ren kami ni anne.. si anne pa.. sana wag maggive up si ureta sa kanya kc mabait nman si anne eh.. naaalala ko pa na sila ung close tapos ngaun sila pa ung nagkakagap.. sayang friendship nio.. no friendship is worth giving up.. that is all i know.. yep...
//file hsl twns tle
huwaw.. nakapasa ako sa flourescent fixture 40 watts....
i mean sa connection... ako na gagawa ng aming lighting sa bahay... go gwen..
//file hsl twns
ok naman sila.. hehe... maliban kay jean...... at kay emer.. tae galunggong ka....! feel mo naman...
//file hsl twns demo.p6
huwaw ang yabang ng mga tichers na iba..
baket p6 major si sir.. hindi english..
at kaya kau pumunta para hanggaan si sir..
dahil anggaling galing nia naman talaga magturo..
parang feeling nio diyos kau para magjudge ng tao
pero mas marami pa kaung mali..
PLEASE PRACTICE WHAT YOU PREACH...
OKI?
//file hsl dlsu-ccs
pumunta sila ejay, jolenz at kath sa masci..
nakita na nila ang pool
where you can walk over water..
wenk....:P
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++comment ko
andami kong natype.. pagod na ako.. at i-you pa ren pinapakinggan ko..hehe.. ayus
//file op comedy.of.manners
++mood: what is my mood? i dont know.. im wearin a mask
++feel: I feel the sweat going down my cheek...
++listenin: stay - cueshe
++++++doin: cleaning somehow
//file op comedy.of.manners
the world is a stage and we are the actors and actresses.. sort of funny well it isnt .. we were gifted with a role to portray during the play.. and sometimes this role means a sacrifice... and it limits the capacity to do something more.. unless the actor is developing.. or the director of the play alters the script..
comedy of manners isnt an exaggeration of the |mannerism| of the social climbers. Once you are invited to a function there is a requirement to bring a mask with you.. this mask enables the character to hide behind the truth.. whats noticeable is the repetition of the sarcastic smiles published by the characters.. every one knows it is all fake.. just a circle that would soon vanish when the eraser touches the surface of the paper..
//file midl
today is a full moon.. too bad I didnt have a camera with 1000x zoom.. is there any yet? The pictures worth a million thoughts are never taken by a camera.. quite disappointing but it is how life is.. I plan to make my space during new moon.. and have a thanksgiving ceremony every esbat..
//file hsl twns
I am going to pass after all.. all I need is to pass the following by Tuesday which is tomorrow.. project in finite (mam asked me to revise it.. wenk!) project in comp sci(with the so-called kalandian).. project in social (im thinking about something I dont like.. and its bugging me) the noypi assignment(I havent done a single speck of the wicked homework.. wenk!).. and I should pass the recom letter to the guidance..
//file hsl dlsu-ccs
there will be a conference(I mean the real thing ok? Not ym) on September 03, 2005 which starts around 8 in the morning.. I am expecting it to be whole day process. . how I wich to see my friends from the university.. I am excited.. to see them… not the java stuff.. wenk!
//file cg Ateneo..
we went to Ateneo.. and Ateneo is big! I mean big trees.. :D anyways.. big talaga mga puno.. tapos automatic ata ang kamay ko at naaliw ako sa mga halamang nasa floor.. I mean sa ground.. well ankyut naman talaga nila.. at nakaipit na ang mga halaman sa libro ko na analytical geometry.. hay... Ansaya.. doon na pa la si therese nag-aaral.. psycho course niya eh.. ako gusto ko theater arts.. hehe.. :D
//file op reason
everything happens for a reason.. and the reason why I went there was to experience first hand.. the feeling of social climbers doing all there sarcastic things in the party.. Id rather be the musician playing my heart out.. than a person eating salad and drinking white wine.. unhappy.. uncontented.. and feeling alone..
//file op ?
++++++++mood: masaya
++++++++feel: im happy shalalala.. it so nice to be happy
++downloadin: hello picassa
++++listenin: bamboo -- alpha beta omega
++++++++doin: nothing.. :P
//file op myself
anu nga ba at ang lakas ng topak ko ngaun..
hay ewan ko ba..
last song syndrome ako lately..
asar... ARGH!
//file lpp through the dark
Traveling through the dark I found a deer
Dead on the edge of the Wilson River Road
It is usually best to roll them into the canyon
That road is narrow; to swerve might make more dead
By the flow of the taillight I stumbled back of the car
And stood by the heap, a doe, a recent killing
She had stiffened already, almost cold
I dragged her off, she was large in the belly
My finger touching her side gave me the reason
Her side was warm, her fawn lay there waiting;
Alive still, never to be born
Besides that mountain road I hesitated
The car aimed its lowered parking lights
Under the hood purred the steady engine
I stood in the glare of the warm exhaust turning red
Around our group I could hear the wilderness listen
I thought hard for us all –my only swerving –
Then pushed her over the edge into the river
//file hsl twns
hay.. naku.. grabe..
wala kaming ginawa..
halos wala kaming class....
it was very nice..
well sort of..
anu ba ito.. nakakaasar..
//file hsl dlsu-ccs
hay naku nakakaasar
natapos ko na den ang mga recollection lettter
at natutuwa ako..
//file music sponge
naeexcite ako sa linggo
ui.. sponge...
paautograph... hehe
++Self comment
ako pa la gagawa ng compilation ng chuva sa english
go english hehe.....
//file op alone
++mood: no comment
++feel: desperate
+++doin: downloadin freestyle so slow
+hearin: Kung Wala Ka -- Hale
//file music freestyle
after 10 years since i deleted so slow in my pc..
nadownload ko na sya ulet.. yihee.. celebrate..
//file op bahay
hay.. walang tao sa bahay ngaun
at gutom na ako..
kc walang pagkain sa ref
ak2ali meron kaso .. YUCK.. ayoko..
hehe.. maarte..
//file itfig memories
hay cant seem to knw how to forget
that smile in your face.. please tell me
so i could move on with my life
i cant seem to know
how to live without you by my side
you are my source of life
my source of will
but please detach me
from the power that is you
//file music hale kung wala ka
natapos na ang lahat
narito pa ren ako
hetong nakatulala
sa mundo
hindi ko maiisip
hindi ko makikita
mga pangarap ko
para sayo
para sayo
OoOoOh hindi ko maiisip kung wala ka
OoOoOh sa buhay ko
nariyan ka pa ba
di ka na matanaw
kung meron madaraan
pasulong
OoOoOh hindi ko maiisip kung wala ka
OoOoOh sa buhay ko
sundan mo ang paghimig na lulan
na aking pinagtatanto
sundan mo ang paghimig koOoOoOh hindi ko maiisip kung wala ka
OoOoOh sa buhay ko
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++ self comment
wala na talaga akong magawa.. humph!
//file op pagdududa
special request..
ERON -- pinakaweirdong tao sa mundo+++++mood: masaya.. kaso malungkot
++feeling: wah.... ah.... anu nga ba?
++listenin: aNg pAg-iBig KoNg itO -- mOonStAr88
+downloadin: yahoo messenger version 7.0
+++++memo: maganda ako sa picture ngaun
//file op pagdududa
anu ba talaga itong buhay na ito.. ako ay nababagot.. hindi ko alam kung baket ako nagkakaganito.. nakakaasar na kc eh.. parang feeling ko lalong gumugulo ang buhay ko.. dahil pinapagulo ko sya.. parang kahit gusto kong makawala eh mas lalo ko pang pinoposas ang sarili ko sa mga kandena ng aking pagkalungkot..
//file op thoughts
i deserve to be happy. but i cant.. i just cant..
it doesnt happen within.. i cant seem to smile with my heart
i cant seem to find my self.. the girl i was before..
and still in the abyss of this ocean
i find you looking back staring at me
hoping i could disappear in those sea
the sea where i could submerge
where i could feel the warmth of your love..
//file bf jeona
huwaw.. wala lang kaming ginawa
kundi kumain ng masarap na pancit kanton ni nanay pressy, magphotoshoot na naman na 100 pictures sa cel ni liezl [it rhymes] at magwrestling sa mouse na hindi namin alam kung baket namin
pinag-aawayan.. i thank god na meron akong bestfriend na tulag ni jeona.. na tulad niyang memorize na ang aking pagkatao.. ang babaeng nagsasabi ng katotohanan sa akin kahit masakit.. at ang babaeng umaaway sa akin kapag sobra na ako.. parang kaming yinyan.. pag masyado nang mataas ang lipad ko eh hahatakin niya ako
para malaman kong tao pa ren ako at kailangan ako'y nasa lupa..
dahil hindi ko kayang lumipad ng wala sya..
//file oaf evs..
go evs.. kaya mo yan..
pinublish ba daw sa blog.. hehe
//file oaf denver
hay.. papunta punta pa sa bahay
tae naman.. as if naman.. feeling nia naman
nakakakaasar.. feeling naman nia na...
hay perwisyo ka talaga sa buhay ko..
so what kung may gf ka.. tinatanong ko ba
epal mo.. ayoko sayo... ARGH!
//file music cueshe ulan
lagi na lang umuulan
parang walang katapusan
tulad ng paghihirap ko ngayon
parang walang humpay
sa kabila ng lahat ng aking pagsisikap
na limutin ka hindi pa rin magawa..
//file music cueshe ulan op
oo nga di pa ren kita makalimutan kris
baket ba ang hirap mo kalimutan.. naaalala ko pa nga ung mga chat naten tuwing gabi.. parang wala ng bukas.. ang mga conversation na ten na sobrang tagal kahit may test pa kinabukasan.. at ang mga panahon na hinayaan mo akong umiyak at pinahiran mo ang aking luha ng saya.. kahit ano talaga gawin ko eh ikaw pa rin laman ng puso.. please naman.. nasasaktan na ako..
//file bloggy
huwaw na tapos ko na ren ang mano mano kong blog..
grabe ang div code.. nakakainlab..
at all thanks to jeona.. kc mahal kita.. hehe
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***self analysis..
huwaw ayoko na talaga.. wala lang.. :D
//file op confusion
+++++mood:confused.. cant you see on the title?
++weather:rainy.. i can feel the rain drippin on my cheeks
+++++trip:stare at you eyes
//file op confusion
why did he say those words
those three words
which made me stare at my pc
and think for a while
maybe he didn;t look into the keyboard..
or maybe like he said
he was just sleepy...
what is happening to me
im so confuse
do you really love me
or you are making me used
//file music cueshe
infairness i like there music
i just downloaded more of their mp3s..
and i think im gonna give up and buy the album itself..
especially their song ulan..
huwaw..
kakakilabot.. u can feel it comes from the heart
as in straight from the heart..
//file music bamboo
im so hooked sa hallelujah
i mean naririnig ko na sya b4
pero anggaling eh
u can feel the sense and the rhythm
u know the emotions
and you can feel the intensity
it says it all
"kasi mahal kita"
//file oaf pg
wuaw
nakita ko sya at parang tumigil mundo ko
parang for 5 seconds eh nagrevolve ang buhay ko sa mata nia
ung mga matang bumibihag sa aking pagkatao
at ang mga mata nagbibigay pag-asang mamahalin nia ako
hindi ko alam kung sinasadya nia
ang mga sulyap na aking nakikita
pero alam ko naman ang katotohan
imposibleng maging mahal ko sya
imposible nga ba?
//file hsl twns
bonding sessions sa mcdo
nung wednesday
mejo ok naman sila
ako lang naman ang hindi
hay
i feel like they cant have room in my heart
because i wont let them in
baket pa?
eh maggagraduate din naman
mas mahirap maglet go sa buhay high school
kung tulad mo ko..
//file hsl tests
huwaw grabe
manual ko ung comp sci
mas ok na ung mapagod ang kamay
kaysa utak
kc pag kamay may nabuburn na fats
eh sa utak
pwede pang mag burn out ang fuse
ahrgh..... system shut down
//file bloggy
naayos ko na sya
kaso nga lang
eh para sa 1024 x 768 lang maganda
kc nag-ooverlap siya eh
asar.....
pano ba itong buhay na ito
ayoko na
maliit ang pc screen ko
wah......
//file oaf ian
huwaw.. knight in shining armor
takte.. grabe
hindi ko binili ang pera ko ng pagkain
pero thanks na ren sa lift
at please
wag nio na po ipagpilitan si denver
sa aken
may buhay na ako..
at ayoko na na maging parte pa sya nun
//file oaf denver
ipagpatuloy mo ang hindi paglabas ng bahay nio
maganda na kc buhay ko
please lang wag ka na manggulo
ikaw lang ang perwisyo eh
//file oaf me
i am seeing the light
it is in front of me
i can feel the light
it is slowly absorbing me
i can touch the light
the heat is burning me
it was you
//file itfig
i love you kris
pero hanggang doon lang
i need you para may hugutan ako ng emotions
i need to feel that love..
that tragic moments
and i want to thank u
u are my source of emotion
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++self comment
sleep na ako.... ZzZzZz
//file op 1148.na
+++mood: swinging.. pendulum style..
+++feel: depressed.. uncertain..
+++chat: anne, jeona, dabbay, paula, anna, kasher, mad, ian
+++stat: finish ko na 2 kill.. ulitin...
+music: cueshe' , my chemical romance
+++nos: 5 new mp3..
//file festival
pumunta kami at bumili ako ng magandang necklace.....
ang kyut kaso nasira ko agad..
pero dont wori aayusin ko naman sya eh..
somehow..
baket bead craft naman den ako ha.. .
hindi lang pangelectronics.. charing
//file oaf denver
shet angulo gulo mo
pwede ba hilingin kong magdisappear ka
as in poof..
parang crunch time sa thesis
na magiging coco crunch ka.....
tapos ipapakain kita kay tommy.....
//file oaf jz
hay kahit ano ginagawa nia
hindi nia pa ren kayang iadmit na mahal nia na talaga
at kahit aminin nia..
gusto niang tuluyang mawala
at sa paraang iyon
napalitan ng suklam sa kanyang puso....
//file oaf kp
he never liked her from the start
he is just sweet
maybe that is why she fell
cause she thought that they could be
but it was all just a lie
a big fat white lie
//file op love.kills
yes love can decieve..
i pity those people who believe love can last forever..
in the next life you can't even tell..
if your gonna be inlove or not
if you'll be born out of shame
love lights up the fire
but it can easily ask the wind to blow
and kill the life within the fire..
//file responsibility
grabe...
computer society
yag [na wala namang ginagawa]
tapos ngaun
ngaun
ngaun
youth org
andami ko nang pasan...
ayoko na....
resign...
haha.
ayoko ng responsibility
gusto ko freeedom..
happinessss..
chuva
tae
//file op diploma
gusto ko na magtapos ng hsl
kc wala den naman kwenta ang math
kung magtheater ka di ba
totoo naman eh
anu un ikokompute mo ung acceleration ng voice mo
ak2ali meron den
kaso sa props na un
eh pano kung artista ka lang..
ak2ali gusto ko director
ok kinakain ko salita ko..
busog na ako..
bURP
//file op crush
so wat kung crush ko sya
he is just my crush
that is the line
his different from kris
far different from kris
and he is not significant in my life
eventhough he is yakult
i mean so wat if he has live microorganisms
what if that microorganism has a delicate function in nature
would you choose technology over nature..
me...
i'll cross that bridge when i come to it..
if ever i come to it..
//file bloggy
template change.....
change template
ahrgh!
kailangan ko na ito mabago...
pano ba magkaroon nung side scroll
anu ba ito
ayoko na.......
wah.....
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++self comment
tinatamad ako eh
