Friday, October 28

only.with.the.heart

hear me now.hear my voice.speaking the words of love.betrayed and died.how lucky you are.just open your eyes and see.anxiety.then faithless you*ll be.just fall on me.there*s no other answer.i*ll catch you.just fall on me


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act 3 scene 5 line 165
juliet [kneeling]
hear me with patience but to speak a word

i*m hanging in the air

damn me! wala na akong nagawang tama

i don*t know what to do
it seems what i do
doesn*t make any sense
to him

-- to me --


it makes me wonder
do the words i speak
make him feel

..something..

i hate this ways
"hate" is a strong word
but please

..patience..

hear me now
please

[the rain keeps on falling]
[to cleanse the earth]


it is getting cold
i feel darkness
i can*t find enough words
to express how i feel
about what you are doing to me

another year is yet to + end +
and another will + begin +

samhain

-- will come --

and when it does

i want to be contented

not just about the earth
but with you

be patient
i need to find you

wait for me

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act 3 scene 5 line 239
juliet
speak'st thou from thy heart?


i heard this song from the radio

it said
i'll be the fire that keeps you warm

and it made me think
i really miss him

i mean

----------------------- evs --------------------

i could talk to someone
and at least not feel
i*m talking to air

unlike others

and he makes me feel special
cause he wants to know about me

i mean

he talks
i talk

about that

but i just have this weird feeling
when i heard the song

it made me think about him

and made me write somethings
random ideas words phrases images pictures stories poems languages

i felt INSPIRED
this energy filled me up

i need you
-- badly --


- - passion - -
- - how i wish to have that spark once more - -
- - give me another chance - -
- - i*ll prove you what i*m worth - -

Thursday, October 27

Get to know yourself better

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life.
You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most AFRAID of:

You are afraid of things that you CANNOT control.
Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your TRUE self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice.
People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

Bright and Cheerful
You are always cheerful and charming. You never get too serious with people when they're around, but when you are alone, you think carefully about what they have said. That's because you don't want anyone to see you being too somber. Your personality means you have a lot of friends and you are often the center of attention. Many people who fall into this category become artists and movie stars, perhaps fame could be yours in the future as well.

Is He The One For You?
Success Rate In Relationships: 68%

Your relationship is moving forward. Just don't trip over.
You and him would be typical young lovers. It would not be all sweet and romantic if you got together, sometimes you would argue or get confused, but those elements would only make your relationship more exciting. At the moment you are probably assuming that he likes you, but sometimes you might not be so sure. Don't worry, you can be sure that he also feels the same way. When both of you sense special feeling towards each other, your relationship is certainly growing. What you should do is try to express your feelings a little more and learn more about him.



http://quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx


Take the quiz: "What kind of eyes do you have? (with pictures)"

Moonlight
You have moonlight eyes. Moonlight is the color of mystery. Your eyes symbolize your ability to see yourself as others see you. You have finesse for letting other people know what you think. You have a soothing and calming ability that you may or may not know about. You have the awesome ability to draw a person's negative energy out and replace it with a positive energy; the world needs more people like you. Some words to describe you: patient, self-controlled, perseverance, insightful, reflective, understanding, serene, and caring.  Posted by Picasa


last picture taken during the trip -- i mean with pau's camera -- it seems hard to move on when you know somethings would never be the same  Posted by Picasa


mirrored image -- this is me pau ate marg joi from left to right im the one holding the camera Posted by Picasa


van mates -- cute right? -- this was at petron somewhere in the north luzon expressway Posted by Picasa


3m --- catch a falling star -- there is annie pau and me -- looked haggard? Posted by Picasa


me and kevin -- this was after the swimming at night -- when he "SURPRISED" us Posted by Picasa


this is our class -- somehow i hope that the glass of our friendship will be filled with happy moments -- and less bitterness Posted by Picasa

Tuesday, October 25

water.dripping

scene 1: underneath the mushroom seat

look at my side

can you see the rain

--dripping

[falling down]

on the earth*s breast

the wind continues howling

the tears began POURING

i feel them
sliding down my suit

i want to escape

i can see the images
blurring slowly
washing away
the faces - the masks -
being cleansed by the heavens

God help me

[stand up]

i could corner the ground
gaining on me
CRUSHING my sole

slowly approaching
the chained cage

opened to the sky

closed to the eyes - those eyes -
stabbing me slowly

killing me


scene 2:approaching - inside the caged court

could feel the tears
- heaven sent -

flowing down
+ slowly

look at the orb

+ kick

the mirror gently forms
below me - sanity knocks -

why couldn*t they understand

i can*t hear myself
i hear the torned soul

those people

those characters
- leeching my being -

they are crying
they aren*t happy

why do they look happy

- fake -

they are playing this
rules


- illusional -

what now

+ kick

[follow the orb]
crushed || underestimated

planted seeds

sow

reap

life

death

STOP


i can*t anymore

catch me --

Monday, October 24

three.instances

walking down the road

stared at the sky
-- couldn*t find a reason

i existed

did i

another year has passed
a moment of reflection

couldn*t but think
did i do something good
something to help the world

i want to be better

i need to be better

i will be Perfect

but perfection limits people
perfection sets limitation

gives a cage

to the free spirit

-- of the universe

in front of an image

illusions

unknown
unspeakable
undefine

why couldn*t i write

++limited words

couln*td keep myself from pondering

am i this shallow

couldn*t i think of something more

why can*t i create poems
why can*t i express myself
why can*t i play this beat
why can*t i speak

i couldn*t listen
-- tell me

could you

i never though i would end up this way

this isn*t me

wake me up

above the roof

[tears falling]

how should i feel

what is it like to feel

[rain pouring]

so cold

is this how to feel

close your eyes
--could you hear the music


|| no ||

i hear

--emptiness--

imagine the dance floor
then the music
STOPS
you caught his eyes
he stares at you
-- could you sense emotions


|| no ||

i sense

--nothing--

imagine he places his arms
around you
moves you closer
places his hand
in your cheeks
-- could you notice his touch


|| no ||

i notice

--vacuum--

i*m starting to fall for you

i*m just
a dream

you*re
the dreamer

+ i envy you +

[rain stopped]

i can*t understand

please tell me

[tears drop from you]

phone call

[first conversation]

|-do you think he*s angry
|+no
|+he*s still happy
|+why?
|-i*m doubting
|-he wouldn*t talk to me
|+no chance
|+we*re just a bit
|+haggard
|-thanks
|-glad to here about it
|+need to go back to work

[second conversation]

|" i*ll talk to you
|- no thanks
|" he loves you
|- you can*t understand
|- i won*t talk to you
|" ?
|- you wouldn*t understand
|" he loves you


promise me

what

when the time comes
when that time comes

you*ll be there

--listen to me

i need you

yes

thanks

thoughts

i wanted to tell you

i know what you*re worth

not to the world
to me

an answered prayer

a gift of heaven

please wait

i*m not yet mature enough
to give my everything
-- to you

i*m sure of one thing
-- i have you

i can*t speak

all i want to say
-- i love you

but i can*t
not now
not ever

wait for me

when august ends

when i could talk to HIM

i need to be sure his safe

before i could be happy

-- in your arms

Sunday, October 23


perfect + i hate that word + you say i*m perfect + the irony is that perfection gives me limitations + you're lucky + you make mistakes + it is because of mistakes you learn + you could dream + you could make it a reality + me? + you say im perfect + but im just a dream + i could never be real  Posted by Picasa

how.is.it.like.to.feel

i*m confined

what is it like to feel

close your eyes
you're dancing to the music
the music is so loud
then suddenly


the music STOPPED

out of the picture
you see that one person
you're world suddenly stops


then soft music sings to your ears

the music is like a violin
whispering the vibrations to your heart


then he PUTS his arms around you

the touch is like heaven's gate
opening at your very feet
light shining through you
the warmth of the sun glowing


theh he places his hands on your face

the gesture is like the cello
playing harmoniuosly with the violin


the world revolves around and him

open your eyes
how does it feel


i can*t feel anything

thoughts i think i*m in love with you

i want to go outside

Thursday, October 20

what.is.happening.to.me

okie
i had my birthday done already
and i think things aren't easy

well i think it isn't

i don't know
what to do

i'm paranoid

because i think of stuff i can't explain
stuff which are unreasonable

and it makes me wonder
what is the real cause of my arrival
why did i set foot in this emptiness

is it to see you under that bridge
is it to be by your side
is it to catch you

tell me

there is no other answer

please catch me

i'm falling

i think

Wednesday, October 19


tuesday.math.bday ko Posted by Picasa


sunday.dlsu.test Posted by Picasa


saturday.tle.skul Posted by Picasa

Sunday, October 16


napapalingon tuwing ika'y dumadaan Posted by Picasa

Friday, October 14


this is me... nung foundation.. cute ko no? Posted by Picasa


i miss my bestfriend Posted by Picasa


normal day po iyan! bag ko ung orange Posted by Picasa

Wednesday, October 12


ito before field demo -- adeek kami sa pic -- putol nga lang si nalang -- :( Posted by Picasa


during the foundation day ito -- nasa rum kami ni sir bangayan kasi he is so kind -- nandito ang mga proof na masaya ang foundation namen -- go townes Posted by Picasa

Monday, October 3

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aalis na si kenneth mamaya..

thanks guys for makin this weekend so memorable..

sayang walang camera..

well, the best memories aren't mean to be captured..

from candy mag..
Totally sweet, that’s what you are. You’ve always been known to have a kind heart. You never leave home without a smile that lights up your face as well as the lives of those around you. Like Smallville’s Lana Lang, you’re warm and loving. You’re always ready to lend a hand and a shoulder to cry on, and share a hug with anyone who needs it. Calm and collected, your serenity is one of the most beautiful things about you. Boys are attracted to your down-to-earth attitude, and gal pals think you’re the most understanding chick on the planet!

Boulder High
You can't understand why couples baby talk or why your friends are so into their crushes. Give your Romeo a chance to prove himself and maybe you'll realize that love is a great adventure—pet names, heartbreaks, second chances and all.

You’re the ultimate Alterna-Babe! You’re a girl who sticks to what you love, but you never get tired of trying out a multitude of things!

Your quota of dreaminess is above average, and the fantasies in your sleep are mild compared to the flaky ones that flash on when you’re wide awake! If you’re stuck in class with a teacher droning on and on about tapeworms, you tune out and flip to another channel in your head for a romantic dream about your favorite celeb. Why not translate some of your dreams into action, like making a fan site online? Remember, you don’t have to “dream the impossible dream” to be happy. You can try for the possible ones.

The Negotiator
You know what you’re after, and you’ll do just the right amount of pulling and pushing to get it. That’s how you ended up with the best Internet schedule — by proving you needed the after-school slot more than your sister did. You don’t look at other people as adversaries — you’d rather find middle ground and make a deal.

Doormat Queen
Ever heard of the term “Express yourself”? While some may throw a fit over an unjustified failing mark, your course of action is probably inaction because you’re afraid of losing your Ms.-Sugar-and-Spice-and-Everything-Nice rep. Keeping your feelings all bottled up is unhealthy, honey. You’re bound to explode and it’s scary to think of how you will react when you finally reach the end of your tether. Be honest with your feelings. Start by voicing out your opinion on small matters. People around you may be surprised or even unappreciative of the change, but in the long run, expressing what you truly feel will definitely do you a world of good.


survey..
pic one
sunrise or sunset?
sunrise
sun or moon?
moon
cloudy or windy?
windy
sunny or rainy?
rainy
summer or winter?
winter
spring or fall?
fall
blue or red?
blue
pink or purple?
pink
black or white?
no comment
shorts or skirts?
skirt
polo or tshirt?
tshirt!
sporty or smarty?
smart
celphone or computer?
computer!
school or work?
school
me or you?
ME!!



okie tulog mode na ako..
saket paren paa at balikat ko!

//file test

aalis na si kenneth mamaya..

thanks guys for makin this weekend so memorable..

sayang walang camera..

well, the best memories aren't mean to be captured..

from candy mag..
Totally sweet, that’s what you are. You’ve always been known to have a kind heart. You never leave home without a smile that lights up your face as well as the lives of those around you. Like Smallville’s Lana Lang, you’re warm and loving. You’re always ready to lend a hand and a shoulder to cry on, and share a hug with anyone who needs it. Calm and collected, your serenity is one of the most beautiful things about you. Boys are attracted to your down-to-earth attitude, and gal pals think you’re the most understanding chick on the planet!

Boulder High
You can't understand why couples baby talk or why your friends are so into their crushes. Give your Romeo a chance to prove himself and maybe you'll realize that love is a great adventure—pet names, heartbreaks, second chances and all.

You’re the ultimate Alterna-Babe! You’re a girl who sticks to what you love, but you never get tired of trying out a multitude of things!

Your quota of dreaminess is above average, and the fantasies in your sleep are mild compared to the flaky ones that flash on when you’re wide awake! If you’re stuck in class with a teacher droning on and on about tapeworms, you tune out and flip to another channel in your head for a romantic dream about your favorite celeb. Why not translate some of your dreams into action, like making a fan site online? Remember, you don’t have to “dream the impossible dream” to be happy. You can try for the possible ones.

The Negotiator
You know what you’re after, and you’ll do just the right amount of pulling and pushing to get it. That’s how you ended up with the best Internet schedule — by proving you needed the after-school slot more than your sister did. You don’t look at other people as adversaries — you’d rather find middle ground and make a deal.

Doormat Queen
Ever heard of the term “Express yourself”? While some may throw a fit over an unjustified failing mark, your course of action is probably inaction because you’re afraid of losing your Ms.-Sugar-and-Spice-and-Everything-Nice rep. Keeping your feelings all bottled up is unhealthy, honey. You’re bound to explode and it’s scary to think of how you will react when you finally reach the end of your tether. Be honest with your feelings. Start by voicing out your opinion on small matters. People around you may be surprised or even unappreciative of the change, but in the long run, expressing what you truly feel will definitely do you a world of good.


survey..
pic one
sunrise or sunset?
sunrise
sun or moon?
moon
cloudy or windy?
windy
sunny or rainy?
rainy
summer or winter?
winter
spring or fall?
fall
blue or red?
blue
pink or purple?
pink
black or white?
no comment
shorts or skirts?
skirt
polo or tshirt?
tshirt!
sporty or smarty?
smart
celphone or computer?
computer!
school or work?
school
me or you?
ME!!



okie tulog mode na ako..
saket paren paa at balikat ko!