[û] watchin the moon rise [û]

JD's Poem

2007-09-02T13:25:00.001+10:00

Moments with you will forever be remembered
Obliterate every fear you'll be happy forever
Not one day passed by without me thinking of you
In times of pain together we'll make it through
Kindness and care are what you gave to me
All I can do is stay by you're side for eternity

My heart is where you will forever stay
And I can't help missing you every single day
You being happy with me is what I always pray

Often times you will feel cold and alone
Readily I will help if you cant make it on your own
Time can surely change everything
Except the bond we had since the beginning
Good times and bad i'll be you're wolf in a sheep's clothing
Always by your side, I'm right here waiting

2007-07-14T22:10:00.000+10:00

2006-11-20T01:17:00.000+10:00

this is me now.

insecurity

2005-11-30T01:06:00.000+10:00

i went to a trip
this was a very happy trip

but i was not happy
simply because
i found insecurity

he said i was an angel face
he had this crush on me
i also thought he was kind of cute
maybe we were meant to be

but then i saw this guy
who was tall and handsome too
my friend liked him as a toy
but i wanted him as a friend

this guy liked my friend
he really does...
but my friend only sees him
as an innocent boy waiting to be touched

he will get touched
and played and fooled
i don*t want it to be
please let him free

but he wants to be
touched toyed and fooled
poor handsome guy
left at the same place where he stood

but this other guy
who seems to befriend me
said i was the one
who he wants to be with

but i dont know
and i dont care
all i want is
that image that they share

they all see me
as some best friend material girl
who no one could love
more than a friend or so

no one could say they love me
because im not that kind of girl
i always smile at all faces
and make them happy as they were

i make there frown upside down
i could listen to them saying all they want
but they can never see beyond that line
they know fate could not intertwine

but im thankful at least
one friend believes in me
time will just passs by
some one will come to make me smile

i want this friend to be happy
cause he knows the real me
he was there when no one came
he was there, simply untamed

but he tamed me, i tamed him
we are both in the same situation
where we are lifeless within
he has found what he wants, i haven't

i thank god for an answered prayer
cause he came at the exact time
to be my friend the one who will always be there
giving me smile, hope and laughter to share...

puso ko'y nasasaktan

2005-11-16T21:06:00.000+10:00

"puso huwag kang sumuko. hindi pa huli ang lahat. maaari pa maging kayo - maaaring maging tayo- sa atin dalawa ayokong bumitaw. hawakan mo ako ng mahigpit. sa ating dalawa wag mo akong piliting mawala. huwag. ayokong pang sumuko. turuan mo na lumaban ako. huwag kang sumuko puso"
lagi na lang akong
nasasaktan
sapagkat
hindi ko alam kung
talaga bang para kami

sa isa't isa
o ang lahat ay guniguni lamang.

marami na ring
pagkakataong nasisira
ang samahan

- ang magandang samahan -

sapagkat lagi na lang
nag-aalinglangan.
wala naman karapatan
para pagdudahan
ngunit hindi mapigilan

magdalawang isip
tumingin sa
iba't ibang mukha
ng senaryo.

hindi ko rin maipalagpas
ang aking pagmumuni muni
na sana ako na ang babaeng perpekto
para sa kanya - para sa iyo -

alam ko na mahal niya ako - mahal mo ko -
sapagkat
totoo ako sa sarili ko
ngunit tila unti-unting
nababahiran ang aking
tiwala sa sarili
ng mga salita
mga boses
nagsasabing
hindi nararapat
ang aming pag-ibig.

hindi ko rin malaman
kung talagang pag-ibig na
itong nadarama.
siguro ay tama sya..
pag-aaral muna
ngunit nawawalan ng saysay
ang bawat pagsikat ng araw
tuwing hindi ko sya naiisip.

tila hindi ko mapansin ang kagandahan
kapag hindi sya nakitang ngumiti..

bakit ba nagdadalamhati ang langit
kapag ninanais.
hindi ba makuntento
ang langit na binababoy
ng isang katauhan ang
perpektong likha ng panginoon.

siguro nagdadalamhati
ang langit sa lupa
sapagkat hindi nito
nadadanas ang
masaktan at ang masiyahan.

kahit unti-unting nasisira
ang lupa ay tanggap niya
ang mga pagkakamali ng mga nilalang
- tanggap niya ang kanyang kahinaan.

bakit ba ikaw ang langit?
bakit mo ba ako minamahal?
huwag ka ng lumuha sa aking harapan
sapagkat binibigyan mo ako ng pag-asa.
- pag-asang pumapatay sa akin -

ang pag-asang
nagsasabi na tayo pa rin

kahit ang ating mga labi ay hindi na maipagdidikit.
kahit ang ating mga mata ay hindi na tatanaw.
kahit ang ating mga kamay ay hindi na magtatagpo.
kahit ang ating mga sarili ay malapit na.. masira.
kahit hindi na mag-iisa ang ating mga diwa
- at ating pag-ibig -

nasasakal ako
hindi ko maisip na ikaw ang magiging kabiyak ko
hindi
hindi talaga tayo

tama na..
wag ka ng umiyak
lagi tayong magsasama
ngunit kahit kailangan

hindi mag-iisa
ang langit at lupa

escalator.tip

2005-11-01T20:57:00.000+10:00

as i was on the escalator
i look around
see this sea
this sea of people
who are passing by
walking around

do they really know where they should go
i dont

i dont know
i feel like walking to this abyss which is the crowd
i want to run away
all i want to do right know is what i like
-- the passion --

i went to the hospital a lot of times right now
this cage was sucking me
like a vampire was present only worse
it was an invisible corpse passing by

we ended up locked in that --cage--
for like over night

i woke up around something something in the morning
only to find that it is ice-cold
really ice cold
when i stood up
it was normal again in temperature

something is haunting me

it is invisible
is it essential to me?

is it essential to feel this weakness that covers me?

we went outside of that cage for sometime
and went to an even bigger cage
or what i call a market

it was the mall

you see the different images
that mirror the soul of this earth
i cant seem to understand
putting on this mask
trying to accept this trend
this so called wave
trying to impress others
when we cant even find contentment inside
why do we need to walk this road
and find that we dont belong

or at least we think we belong

this feeling keeps on moving me
when i feel closed or suffocated
i stand and walk

i walk
walking has given me this sense of security
it is kind of odd to think that walking
could really burn a lot of calories

all i have to do right now
is burn some weigh
burn some energy
burn my desire

i need to find that spark
that flame
i will light it up again
to see the things that i use to have
to be on the go
i dont want to be a sloth anymore

this weakness is killing me

i have to fight myself
some how

yellow was my color
but when added with red
it ends up with who i am

-- orange
like
intellect when added with passion
gives happiness

i need those materials
i hope you could just buy them in a store
ill save all the money ill have
to just buy that passion

i need it
badly

ill go down this escalator
and wait for you to come
and pass me by

only.with.the.heart

2005-10-28T01:45:00.000+10:00

hear me now.hear my voice.speaking the words of love.betrayed and died.how lucky you are.just open your eyes and see.anxiety.then faithless you*ll be.just fall on me.there*s no other answer.i*ll catch you.just fall on me

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act 3 scene 5 line 165
juliet [kneeling]
hear me with patience but to speak a word

i*m hanging in the air

damn me! wala na akong nagawang tama

i don*t know what to do
it seems what i do
doesn*t make any sense
to him

-- to me --

it makes me wonder
do the words i speak
make him feel

..something..

i hate this ways
"hate" is a strong word
but please

..patience..

hear me now
please

[the rain keeps on falling]
[to cleanse the earth]

it is getting cold
i feel darkness
i can*t find enough words
to express how i feel
about what you are doing to me

another year is yet to + end +
and another will + begin +

samhain

-- will come --

and when it does

i want to be contented

not just about the earth
but with you

be patient
i need to find you

wait for me

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act 3 scene 5 line 239
juliet
speak'st thou from thy heart?

i heard this song from the radio

it said
i'll be the fire that keeps you warm

and it made me think
i really miss him

i mean

----------------------- evs --------------------

i could talk to someone
and at least not feel
i*m talking to air

unlike others

and he makes me feel special
cause he wants to know about me

i mean

he talks
i talk

about that

but i just have this weird feeling
when i heard the song

it made me think about him

and made me write somethings
random ideas words phrases images pictures stories poems languages

i felt INSPIRED
this energy filled me up

i need you
-- badly --

- - passion - -
- - how i wish to have that spark once more - -
- - give me another chance - -
- - i*ll prove you what i*m worth - -

Get to know yourself better

2005-10-27T02:56:00.000+10:00

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life.
You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most AFRAID of:

You are afraid of things that you CANNOT control.
Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your TRUE self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice.
People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

Bright and Cheerful
You are always cheerful and charming. You never get too serious with people when they're around, but when you are alone, you think carefully about what they have said. That's because you don't want anyone to see you being too somber. Your personality means you have a lot of friends and you are often the center of attention. Many people who fall into this category become artists and movie stars, perhaps fame could be yours in the future as well.

Is He The One For You?
Success Rate In Relationships: 68%

Your relationship is moving forward. Just don't trip over.
You and him would be typical young lovers. It would not be all sweet and romantic if you got together, sometimes you would argue or get confused, but those elements would only make your relationship more exciting. At the moment you are probably assuming that he likes you, but sometimes you might not be so sure. Don't worry, you can be sure that he also feels the same way. When both of you sense special feeling towards each other, your relationship is certainly growing. What you should do is try to express your feelings a little more and learn more about him.

http://quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

2005-10-27T02:44:00.000+10:00

Take the quiz: "What kind of eyes do you have? (with pictures)"

Moonlight
You have moonlight eyes. Moonlight is the color of mystery. Your eyes symbolize your ability to see yourself as others see you. You have finesse for letting other people know what you think. You have a soothing and calming ability that you may or may not know about. You have the awesome ability to draw a person's negative energy out and replace it with a positive energy; the world needs more people like you. Some words to describe you: patient, self-controlled, perseverance, insightful, reflective, understanding, serene, and caring.

2005-10-27T02:32:00.000+10:00

last picture taken during the trip -- i mean with pau's camera -- it seems hard to move on when you know somethings would never be the same

2005-10-27T02:30:00.000+10:00

mirrored image -- this is me pau ate marg joi from left to right im the one holding the camera

2005-10-27T02:29:00.001+10:00

van mates -- cute right? -- this was at petron somewhere in the north luzon expressway

2005-10-27T02:29:00.000+10:00

3m --- catch a falling star -- there is annie pau and me -- looked haggard?

2005-10-27T02:27:00.001+10:00

me and kevin -- this was after the swimming at night -- when he "SURPRISED" us

2005-10-27T02:27:00.000+10:00

this is our class -- somehow i hope that the glass of our friendship will be filled with happy moments -- and less bitterness

water.dripping

2005-10-25T23:55:00.000+10:00

scene 1: underneath the mushroom seat

look at my side

can you see the rain

--dripping

[falling down]

on the earth*s breast

the wind continues howling

the tears began POURING

i feel them
sliding down my suit

i want to escape

i can see the images
blurring slowly
washing away
the faces - the masks -
being cleansed by the heavens

God help me

[stand up]

i could corner the ground
gaining on me
CRUSHING my sole

slowly approaching
the chained cage

opened to the sky

closed to the eyes - those eyes -
stabbing me slowly

killing me

scene 2:approaching - inside the caged court

could feel the tears
- heaven sent -

flowing down
+ slowly

look at the orb

+ kick

the mirror gently forms
below me - sanity knocks -

why couldn*t they understand

i can*t hear myself
i hear the torned soul

those people

those characters
- leeching my being -

they are crying
they aren*t happy

why do they look happy

- fake -

they are playing this

rules

- illusional -

what now

+ kick

[follow the orb]
crushed || underestimated

planted seeds

sow

reap

life

death

STOP

i can*t anymore

catch me --

three.instances

2005-10-24T00:54:00.000+10:00

walking down the road

stared at the sky
-- couldn*t find a reason

i existed

did i

another year has passed
a moment of reflection

couldn*t but think
did i do something good
something to help the world

i want to be better

i need to be better

i will be Perfect

but perfection limits people
perfection sets limitation

gives a cage

to the free spirit

-- of the universe

in front of an image

illusions

unknown
unspeakable
undefine

why couldn*t i write

++limited words

couln*td keep myself from pondering

am i this shallow

couldn*t i think of something more

why can*t i create poems
why can*t i express myself
why can*t i play this beat
why can*t i speak

i couldn*t listen
-- tell me

could you

i never though i would end up this way

this isn*t me

wake me up

above the roof

[tears falling]

how should i feel

what is it like to feel

[rain pouring]

so cold

is this how to feel

close your eyes
--could you hear the music

|| no ||

i hear

--emptiness--

imagine the dance floor
then the music STOPS
you caught his eyes
he stares at you
-- could you sense emotions

|| no ||

i sense

--nothing--

imagine he places his arms
around you
moves you closer
places his hand
in your cheeks
-- could you notice his touch

|| no ||

i notice

--vacuum--

i*m starting to fall for you

i*m just
a dream

you*re
the dreamer

+ i envy you +

[rain stopped]

i can*t understand

please tell me

[tears drop from you]

phone call

[first conversation]

|-do you think he*s angry
|+no
|+he*s still happy
|+why?
|-i*m doubting
|-he wouldn*t talk to me
|+no chance
|+we*re just a bit
|+haggard
|-thanks
|-glad to here about it
|+need to go back to work

[second conversation]

|" i*ll talk to you
|- no thanks
|" he loves you
|- you can*t understand
|- i won*t talk to you
|" ?
|- you wouldn*t understand
|" he loves you

promise me

what

when the time comes
when that time comes

you*ll be there

--listen to me

i need you

yes

thanks

thoughts

i wanted to tell you

i know what you*re worth

not to the world
to me

an answered prayer

a gift of heaven

please wait

i*m not yet mature enough
to give my everything
-- to you

i*m sure of one thing
-- i have you

i can*t speak

all i want to say
-- i love you

but i can*t
not now
not ever

wait for me

when august ends

when i could talk to HIM

i need to be sure his safe

before i could be happy

-- in your arms

2005-10-23T20:28:00.000+10:00

perfect + i hate that word + you say i*m perfect + the irony is that perfection gives me limitations + you're lucky + you make mistakes + it is because of mistakes you learn + you could dream + you could make it a reality + me? + you say im perfect + but im just a dream + i could never be real

how.is.it.like.to.feel

2005-10-23T19:16:00.000+10:00

i*m confined

what is it like to feel

close your eyes
you're dancing to the music
the music is so loud
then suddenly

the music STOPPED

out of the picture
you see that one person
you're world suddenly stops

then soft music sings to your ears

the music is like a violin
whispering the vibrations to your heart

then he PUTS his arms around you

the touch is like heaven's gate
opening at your very feet
light shining through you
the warmth of the sun glowing

theh he places his hands on your face

the gesture is like the cello
playing harmoniuosly with the violin

the world revolves around and him

open your eyes
how does it feel

i can*t feel anything

thoughts i think i*m in love with you

i want to go outside

what.is.happening.to.me

2005-10-20T22:39:00.000+10:00

okie
i had my birthday done already
and i think things aren't easy

well i think it isn't

i don't know
what to do

i'm paranoid

because i think of stuff i can't explain
stuff which are unreasonable

and it makes me wonder
what is the real cause of my arrival
why did i set foot in this emptiness

is it to see you under that bridge
is it to be by your side
is it to catch you

tell me

there is no other answer

please catch me

i'm falling

i think

2005-10-19T00:50:00.000+10:00

tuesday.math.bday ko

2005-10-19T00:49:00.000+10:00

sunday.dlsu.test

2005-10-19T00:48:00.000+10:00

saturday.tle.skul

2005-10-16T01:22:00.000+10:00

napapalingon tuwing ika'y dumadaan

2005-10-14T01:01:00.000+10:00

this is me... nung foundation.. cute ko no?

2005-10-14T00:57:00.000+10:00

i miss my bestfriend

2005-10-14T00:53:00.000+10:00

normal day po iyan! bag ko ung orange

2005-10-12T00:38:00.000+10:00

ito before field demo -- adeek kami sa pic -- putol nga lang si nalang -- :(

2005-10-12T00:37:00.000+10:00

during the foundation day ito -- nasa rum kami ni sir bangayan kasi he is so kind -- nandito ang mga proof na masaya ang foundation namen -- go townes

//file test

2005-10-03T00:14:00.001+10:00

aalis na si kenneth mamaya..

thanks guys for makin this weekend so memorable..

sayang walang camera..

well, the best memories aren't mean to be captured..

from candy mag..
Totally sweet, that’s what you are. You’ve always been known to have a kind heart. You never leave home without a smile that lights up your face as well as the lives of those around you. Like Smallville’s Lana Lang, you’re warm and loving. You’re always ready to lend a hand and a shoulder to cry on, and share a hug with anyone who needs it. Calm and collected, your serenity is one of the most beautiful things about you. Boys are attracted to your down-to-earth attitude, and gal pals think you’re the most understanding chick on the planet!

Boulder High
You can't understand why couples baby talk or why your friends are so into their crushes. Give your Romeo a chance to prove himself and maybe you'll realize that love is a great adventure—pet names, heartbreaks, second chances and all.

You’re the ultimate Alterna-Babe! You’re a girl who sticks to what you love, but you never get tired of trying out a multitude of things!

Your quota of dreaminess is above average, and the fantasies in your sleep are mild compared to the flaky ones that flash on when you’re wide awake! If you’re stuck in class with a teacher droning on and on about tapeworms, you tune out and flip to another channel in your head for a romantic dream about your favorite celeb. Why not translate some of your dreams into action, like making a fan site online? Remember, you don’t have to “dream the impossible dream” to be happy. You can try for the possible ones.

The Negotiator
You know what you’re after, and you’ll do just the right amount of pulling and pushing to get it. That’s how you ended up with the best Internet schedule — by proving you needed the after-school slot more than your sister did. You don’t look at other people as adversaries — you’d rather find middle ground and make a deal.

Doormat Queen
Ever heard of the term “Express yourself”? While some may throw a fit over an unjustified failing mark, your course of action is probably inaction because you’re afraid of losing your Ms.-Sugar-and-Spice-and-Everything-Nice rep. Keeping your feelings all bottled up is unhealthy, honey. You’re bound to explode and it’s scary to think of how you will react when you finally reach the end of your tether. Be honest with your feelings. Start by voicing out your opinion on small matters. People around you may be surprised or even unappreciative of the change, but in the long run, expressing what you truly feel will definitely do you a world of good.

survey..
pic one
sunrise or sunset?
sunrise
sun or moon?
moon
cloudy or windy?
windy
sunny or rainy?
rainy
summer or winter?
winter
spring or fall?
fall
blue or red?
blue
pink or purple?
pink
black or white?
no comment
shorts or skirts?
skirt
polo or tshirt?
tshirt!
sporty or smarty?
smart
celphone or computer?
computer!
school or work?
school
me or you?
ME!!

okie tulog mode na ako..
saket paren paa at balikat ko!

//file test

2005-10-03T00:14:00.000+10:00

//file day september30

2005-09-30T21:47:00.000+10:00

++see: my permit sa lasalle
++hear: ung tv sa baba.. sana'y wala ng wakas
++touch: ung keyboard
++smell: ung pawis ko tae baho ko!
++taste: french bread!!!!!

grabe napakasaya ng araw na ito para sa aken....
sobrang daming nangyaring significant na nakakatouch..

ganito..

so nag-umpisa ang araw ko na nagising ako ng 430
at natulog ako ulet
at nagising ako ng 530
at nagjogging ako
at nagonline ako

kinausap ko si jolenz
hehe

pati sila mike.. grabe nakakamiss pa la sila..
at namimiss den nila ako..

so...
ligo...
at ayun.. nasa skul ako..
at inallow ako dalhin celphone ko

yey!
grabe bait nung guard sa pearl inallow ako mag pass kahit sarado pa sila.. pinatakas nila ako infairness..

at nakapasok ako na inde nakauniform!
bait nung guard grabe!

so ayun..
masaya naman

praktis!

at praktis

thanks sa mga tao!
sa mga picture..

picture buddy - ruvie
nana marie!!!!!
anna lea..
paula..
mOink..
nica..
mikel...
jj..
pauli..
diego..
jeona..
TOWNES..

go panalo tau! yes! 41-37..

dehydrated ako!

at di ako kumain!

masaya..
tapos pumunta kami lasalle ni anne!

at dun kami nagdate

at ambait ni ejay!

appreciate ko na sya sobra!

grabe!!!

at nakita ko si penpen!

wafu!

at si paul!

kyutie... nashare nia na sa ken!

bait den nung mga people sa pila..
nakikisama sila sa kabangag ko!

bait ni dimmie
at ung ma ma sa xerox machine
pati ung babaeng taga st scho..

bait nila..

pati ung babae sa computer shop

grabe!

pati si moink!

pati ung babae sa processing!

at ung mga tao sa lasallle......

mad..
ej david..
kath..
lai..
penpen..
paul..

grabe feel at home pa ren ako sa inyo!

thanks kay
nina..
jose..
lawrence..

i lab u!

thank you god for my life..

//file me psychology

2005-09-26T22:58:00.000+10:00

++mOod: feeling blue..

++see: cloud 9 wrapper
++hear: inner voices - baby girl
++speak: silent mode
++touch: the keyboard
++taste: saliva ko! hehe

mayroong kasabihan na kapag napakaganda na ng takbo ng mundo ay malalamang mong ikaw lang ang panira rito.. parang napapasin mo na ikaw lagi ang nakakaperwisyo sa buhay ng iba at ikaw ang nagiging panira.. parang siguro kung wala ako kaya nila. or siguro kung wala ako mataas ang grade nila..

hindi na ako part ng kahit anung banda.. isa lang ang naging banda ko ever at sana maging loyal ako kc nakakakonsensya den pa la sya.. sapagkat napakasupportive nila pero ako naman masyadong nag-aasume.. kailangan hayaan ang ibang tao makadiscover sa iyo at manahimik sa isang tabi.. so what kung marunong ako? magaling ba ako? hindi!

nakasabay ko pa ren si patrick kahit todo iwas na ako.. nakakalungkot naman dahil parang hindi na namin kilala ang isa't isa ngunit mas maganda ng ganun.. kahit papano..

wag mo na ako kausapin.. naiinlove ako sayo.. nasaktan mo na ako dati.. at alam ko masasaktan mo ulet ako.. kaya please.. sorry invisible ako sa iyo.. patawad..

kanina napagtanto ko na napakapanira ko sa mundo.. biruin mo napakacrab ko in a way na feeling ko dahil saken kaya sila bumabagsak..

naiiyak na ako.. sana makaiyak ako sa balikat mo.. kaso nasa bahay ka at nasa bahay den ako.. in short magkaiba tau ng bahay!

grabe.. nakakalift kahit papano ng spirit ang ice cream.. ok lang! hay basta kailangan kong sumaya..

list to do before i die:
.. go to africa
.. help people
.. act in a theater
.. plant a tree
.. swim in the dead sea
.. have a house
.. do the wire connections
.. finish my course
.. see a comet
.. serve God

kapag nagawa ko na iyan.. pede na ako mamatay.. hay buhay..

gusto ko ng mabuhay ng payapa.. at sana wala ka na doon.. sapagkat hindi ko maiisip na nandoon ka pa ren sa buhay ko.. ayoko na maging close tayo.. nasasaktan mo lang ako lalo.. at sana.. sana.. di na kita makita..

inner voices - baby girl

there are times wen i luk in ur eyes
i see the love that we share
i see the joy in time
but i didn't see the feelings you hide
and now you're saying gudbye
coz your love has died

pre-chorus:
and all i can think i bout you
the way u say u love me too
and everytime i close my eyes
i see your face
my love can never be erased
and you can never be replaced

chorus:
baby girl
why dont you come back to me
why dont you love me anymore
baby girl
you know i still care for you
you know i will love you forevermore

there are times wen i luk in ur eyes
i see the love that we share
i see the joy in time

but i didn't feel what you tried to hide
and now you're saying gudbye
coz your feelings has died

repeat pre-chorus
repeat chorus 2 times
repeat pre-chorus
repeat chorus

wakoko.. aha.. i miss my bandmates..

pS.. well skul is.. wala.. wala akong pake.. wala naman ginagawa and everything.. may test lang sa little prince at di ko pa nababasa.. wahaha.. pasaway ako masyado..

hay naku.. gwapo ni pj.. love ko na si pj.. pati si lyndon mabait sila eh.. magiging close kami ni evan.. at magpapaturo ako kay bubu..

sa girls naman.. ok den.. masaya den sila.. magtatambourine daw kami nila candice sa foundation day..

plan sa foundation..
.. tambourine
.. field demo
.. layas na ako

wakoko!

plans ko lately..
sep 30 date namen ni anne
oct 02 simba! duh!
oct 05 bday ni noreen / play
oct 07 foundation day
oct 09 bday ni step dad
oct 11 test sa english
oct 16 family gimik.. haha
oct 18 bday ni pearl
oct 19 umpisa ng test
oct 20 bday ni ada
oct 21 bday ni paula
oct 22 field trip
oct 23 play sa paco
oct 24 outing ng townes
oct 26/28 calvin
oct 27 bday ni 3xa
oct 31 ubernyt sa men
nov 01 bday ni maxinne
nov 06 bday ni anne
nov 18 mymp.. araneta

//file op me myself and the world

2005-09-25T16:44:00.000+10:00

++mood: masaya ako

++see: the red bear bank ko
++speak: sumasabay ako sa kahit pa! wahahha
++hear: kahit pa at ung tunog nung electric fan
++touch: yellow pad paper.. baket hawak ko?
++smell: insenso.. cinnamon.. wakoko

++last song syndrome: kung wala ka - hale
++last song played with: eagle's wings - church
++last song listened at: kahit pa - hale

happy birthday pJ! grabe pj i wish you all the love in the world. at sana maniwala ka na may nagmamahal sau at isa na ako doon.. haha.. pero seriously love ko si pj kc ambait bait nia ang everything..
nakakatouch kc siya ung parang nakakonvince kay chan namaghanap ng ibang drummer and everything.. infairness ambait talaga ni pj!

first time kong kumain sa turo turo nung saturday.. at nakalimutan namin si manalang.. di kc kame makalapit dahil strong wind.. haha.. joke lang.. naforgot lang talga namen..

nagpraktis sila jeona nung sat den enden ayun.. di daw sumulpot si roc.. asar nga daw sila eh.. maganda and everything.. kulang na lang drums.. yey!

ako na ay member ng band nila jayjay! yes!

tumawag si bernard sa bahay! nice! hehe! friends pa ren kami.. tested by time paren! solid.. haha syempre, ako pa!

cute ni lyndon kaso parang wala syang selfconfidence and ever.. at masaya ako kc kahit papano napapasmile ko sya.. haha nakakatuwa pa la ako..

happy debut mad.. sayang di ako nainvite.. pero ok lang.. masaya daw pero ok lang.. ehehe

grabe antagal namen sa jolibee.. nakamaraming cheesy fries na kami and everything di pa ren kami umaalis.. grabe nakakaumay ang cheesy fries!

tumugtog ako sa simbahan!

miss na ako ni arianne... kakatouch

last days na ni kenneth sa pinas.. mamimiss kita kenneth..

bat lahat ng tao pumupunta ng usa?

ginawan ako ng poem ni emjay! yiheeeeee.. masaya

masarap ang feeling sa aming family dahil mabait sila sa aken and everything.. todo support sila sa ken.. awwwwww

nakakanood ako ng avatar.. ang adek ko na infairness.. aaantabayan ko talaga un as if promise!

di makakapunta sila ejay kath sa foundation day and everything kc may class pa sila eh hangang 1130 and everything un noh so .. di talaga sila makakaattend.. hay di nila makikita ang performance ko!

kakareerin ko ung battle of the bands now that i am happy with my bandmates.. sorry paula sa abala and everything...

Thanks po sa townes.. unti-unti na akong nafefeel at home.. nung una hindi kc may gap at barriers and everything pero ngaun unti-unti kong naeenjoy ang section na ito.. mahihirapan ako magcollege

di pa ako napapasa ng lasalle form.. haha tamad ako.. hehe.. pero kaya un! ako pa.. sa up nga last minute pa eh.. hehe

haha.. ansaya mabuhay..

magdadate kami ni anne sa friday

pupunta ako sa band practice sa sabado!

grades ko nga pa la

90 physics [ninety lang.. putek.. epal!]
89 english [bait ni mam correa...]
85 analytic geom [whew! nasa bingit ako ng kamatayan!]
87 filipino [buti pa kay ginoo.. nakaka 89 ako]
00 makabayan [wala kc eko!]
00 eko [wala nga di ba?]
87 elektronics [sheeet pasa ako! ty God n sir bangs!]
88 pehm [haha.. bagsak pa naman perio ko]
88 homeroom [pano nagkagrade to? wala kami homeroom ha]
85 ad chem [buntis hangin kc.. hehe]
92 comp sci [shet! ty sherwin..!]
85 finite MATH [asa pa ako math yan eh]
91 french [di ba bagsak ako sa test? la pa ko ntbuk]
00 humanities [haha.. sana maka.. 89 ako]
00 cat [seperate pala un shet!]
00 average [kulang pa ng grades tae! ehhe]

sabi ni mama ok lang naman daw.. kc first quarter pa lang.. syempre ok lang bagsak bagsak sa pirst quarter since madami pang quarter

kaso wala n ako gana pag p6... huhu.. 90 lang recitation ko.. asar naman.. i deserve more naman di ba? duh! pero ok lang den.. kopya na lang ako dis quaRter wakoko.. dali lang naman ngaun eh.. concepts and chuva! haha

yey! i couldn't wish for anything more..

and i could still give this up.. all of this

just for God..

even you.. :D

ps.. yes nakamove on na ako kahit papano.. isa ka ng parte ng magagandang memories na nagpapalakas sa aken kapag nasa bottom ground na ako.. thanks so much. i still love you!

//file me confessions

2005-09-23T21:23:00.000+10:00

okay here is the deal about me lately

i am enjoying my stay at my section which is townes
at nakuha na ung CD ng PROM.. huwaw!

grabe come to think of it nakakaiyak sya
parang masyadong na treasure at naapreciate ko every minute of my life
at masaya mabuhay sobra as in

kaso here is the deal
i think i am fallin for some guy na loyal paren sa mahal nia
at ayun ang problema. i mean sana forever loyal na lang ako kay kris pero parang human instinct na na ganun eh. sa bible nga polygamus halos lahat. hay hindi ko na alam.. tapos ang masakit pa doon ay kaibigan lang talaga ang turing niya sa akin forever.. as in.. feeling ko nga walang chance na maging MU or something....

malapit na ang pasahan ng form sa lasalle at wala pa akong picture
wahahaha.. evil..
ako nga pa la ay isang sour na tao..
kc sinigang favorite ko haha

onga pa la i need to be nice to people
because life is too short to be wasted..

here are my plans so far..

sept 24.. bday ni pj! at ni kath! townes
sept 29 bday ni bernard
sept 30 pasa form sa lasalle [last minute ulet :P]
oct 01 lalabas kami ni anne
oct 05 bday ni ren tapos may play
oct 07 foundation [putek!]
oct 09 bday ni stepdad
oct 17 bday ni emer.. bat ko to nilagay?
oct 19-21 periodic test na. washu!
oct 20 bday ni ada
oct 21 bday ni paula
oct 23 play sa paco catholic
oct 24 bday ni joi
somewhere here may gimik ang cherry red.. haha
oct 31 haloween party sa men ata[??]
nov 01 bday ni maxinne
nov 06 bday ni monalee
nov 18 araneta mymp
nov 21 anniversary ni mads at bernard
tapos nagbabalak ako sumama sa choir ng don bosco

at ok pa naman kami ni jeona kaso di lang lagi nagkikita..
at bago na phone number namen
at tutugtog ako sa foundation

un lang.....

//file after.10.years.ago

2005-09-10T23:14:00.000+10:00

++feel: agrh! conscious..
++mood: i want ice cream... gimme..

//file week s.. madami
ganito ang nangyayari sa buhay ko..
1. nangdlsu seminar nung september 3
2. kumain ng maraming itlog so chug! sabog.. allergy..
3. narerealize ko ng masaya sa townes.. pero di paren ako comfortable
4. nakilala ko na si kaloy at si tomas leonor
5. nachismis ako dito sa annex 45.. at nasolve na sya
6. wala na kaming maid..
7. wala na ren akong respect sa p6 teacher namen
8. wala na akong kinakain..
9. magaling magbasketball ang townes
10. napaiyak ako ni emer kc masama sya
11. epal ni jean canares..
12. away bati kami ni ejay pero bati na kami
13. away kami ni eron
14. naaasar na ako sa dalawang tao
15. masaya naman buhay ko.. kahit wala ka...
16. kinausap ako ni denver
17. magdadate kami ni anne

ok? ung lang muna.. wala akong masyadong maiisip eh.. hehe.. angbitter ko na talaga..

//file oaf self.analysis

2005-08-25T23:16:00.000+10:00

++++mood: ansaket
++++feel: masaket pa ren

++listenin: i-you by bamboo
+++++doing: wah!!!!!!

//file oaf self.analysis
im confused.. i cant find myself within me.. it is like i got the wrong body... and when i come to think about it i really cant define love.. i cant define it.. it hurts so much.. i cant define art.. i cant define myself... i feel so alone.. i know i have friends and they are there for me.. but it is just.. i cant find who i am.. i seems the world has turned topsy turvy.. im becoming vain.. im turning bitter.. i dont wanna be like that.. i want to love..

//file itfig reminiscing
we had so many memories together..
i cant count the times you made me happy cause you always did..
i cant count the times you made me cry cause you always wiped my tears..
i cant count the times you caught me cause i always fell..
i cant count the times you made me secure cause you held me in your arms..
i cant count the times you sang to me cause you let me sing my heart out..
i cant count the times we walked together cause you always carried me
most of all
i cant count the times i said i love you cause you always told me i dont love you....

//file oaf pg
nagiiwasan tau.. ayoko ng ganito.. ayokong mawala ka dahil magsisisi ako.. ayokong mawalan ng kaibigan na tulad mo dahil lagi kang nariyan bumabantay kapag tulog ako.. at umaalala kapag may sakit ako.. sana nga lagi na lang akong may sakit para alalahanin mo ako.. kaysa naman ok ang pangangatawan ko pero di mo naman ako pinapansin..

//file music bamboo i-you
i really dunno what love is..
why does this song kill me so bad..
it is like it penetrates but bombards the blood flowing within me
underflame.. dont be afraid.. nothing stronger.. nothing stronger than the soul reviving..

//file oaf mean
huwaw... anggaling ng bamboo.. may puso.... grabe anggaling nila..
naasar ako doon sa ate ni nek nek.. sino ba un si mean.. feeling masayado as if naman maganda siya or what.. yuckster.... salbahe pero kahit na... feel nia naman... tapos epal daw sponge.. as if naman.. baket magaling ka ba kumanta.. wala kang karapatan sabihin na panget ang bamboo.. gusto mo saksakin kita.. ha.. samahan ko pa ng sabunot tpos ishave ko kilay mo.. kapal mo naman.. as if maganda ka.. yuck.. comp sci daw.. feel mo naman.. alam mo ba kung ano ang visual c++ hindi di ba? kc BOBO ka! TANGA! yabang mo! kaya nga mean name mo eh kc you are MEAN

//file oaf jean
grabe tama bang buhusan ako ng ketchup kahit di ko birthday.. alam mo bang 15 times kong shinampoo ang buhok ko bagop mawala ang scent ng ketchup.. ha? ha? inde naman sa personallan pero feel mo naman nakakatuwa.. tama ba un.. at wag ka nga maligo kapag wala kang dalang towel.. baka may thingie pa sa hair mo.. maalaga ako sa buhok no.. di katulad mo.. >:P asar ka naman.. at wag mo nga ako daganan kc nabubuilt ang pressure sa face ko.. di ka ba makapaghintay? epal mo.. antaba taba mo pa naman.. wala akong laban sau noh! duh.... waistline mo 45!!!!!! wenk!

//file oaf pg
nakita mo ako na magulo hair ko
pero ok lang.. kelan ba naging maayos..?

//file bf anne
huwaw close kame... going strong pa ren kami ni anne.. si anne pa.. sana wag maggive up si ureta sa kanya kc mabait nman si anne eh.. naaalala ko pa na sila ung close tapos ngaun sila pa ung nagkakagap.. sayang friendship nio.. no friendship is worth giving up.. that is all i know.. yep...

//file hsl twns tle
huwaw.. nakapasa ako sa flourescent fixture 40 watts....
i mean sa connection... ako na gagawa ng aming lighting sa bahay... go gwen..

//file hsl twns
ok naman sila.. hehe... maliban kay jean...... at kay emer.. tae galunggong ka....! feel mo naman...

//file hsl twns demo.p6
huwaw ang yabang ng mga tichers na iba..
baket p6 major si sir.. hindi english..
at kaya kau pumunta para hanggaan si sir..
dahil anggaling galing nia naman talaga magturo..
parang feeling nio diyos kau para magjudge ng tao
pero mas marami pa kaung mali..
PLEASE PRACTICE WHAT YOU PREACH...
OKI?

//file hsl dlsu-ccs
pumunta sila ejay, jolenz at kath sa masci..
nakita na nila ang pool
where you can walk over water..
wenk....:P

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++comment ko
andami kong natype.. pagod na ako.. at i-you pa ren pinapakinggan ko..hehe.. ayus

//file op comedy.of.manners

2005-08-22T12:34:00.000+10:00

++mood: what is my mood? i dont know.. im wearin a mask
++feel: I feel the sweat going down my cheek...

++listenin: stay - cueshe
++++++doin: cleaning somehow

//file op comedy.of.manners
the world is a stage and we are the actors and actresses.. sort of funny well it isnt .. we were gifted with a role to portray during the play.. and sometimes this role means a sacrifice... and it limits the capacity to do something more.. unless the actor is developing.. or the director of the play alters the script..
comedy of manners isnt an exaggeration of the |mannerism| of the social climbers. Once you are invited to a function there is a requirement to bring a mask with you.. this mask enables the character to hide behind the truth.. whats noticeable is the repetition of the sarcastic smiles published by the characters.. every one knows it is all fake.. just a circle that would soon vanish when the eraser touches the surface of the paper..

//file midl
today is a full moon.. too bad I didnt have a camera with 1000x zoom.. is there any yet? The pictures worth a million thoughts are never taken by a camera.. quite disappointing but it is how life is.. I plan to make my space during new moon.. and have a thanksgiving ceremony every esbat..

//file hsl twns
I am going to pass after all.. all I need is to pass the following by Tuesday which is tomorrow.. project in finite (mam asked me to revise it.. wenk!) project in comp sci(with the so-called kalandian).. project in social (im thinking about something I dont like.. and its bugging me) the noypi assignment(I havent done a single speck of the wicked homework.. wenk!).. and I should pass the recom letter to the guidance..

//file hsl dlsu-ccs
there will be a conference(I mean the real thing ok? Not ym) on September 03, 2005 which starts around 8 in the morning.. I am expecting it to be whole day process. . how I wich to see my friends from the university.. I am excited.. to see them… not the java stuff.. wenk!

//file cg Ateneo..
we went to Ateneo.. and Ateneo is big! I mean big trees.. :D anyways.. big talaga mga puno.. tapos automatic ata ang kamay ko at naaliw ako sa mga halamang nasa floor.. I mean sa ground.. well ankyut naman talaga nila.. at nakaipit na ang mga halaman sa libro ko na analytical geometry.. hay... Ansaya.. doon na pa la si therese nag-aaral.. psycho course niya eh.. ako gusto ko theater arts.. hehe.. :D

//file op reason
everything happens for a reason.. and the reason why I went there was to experience first hand.. the feeling of social climbers doing all there sarcastic things in the party.. Id rather be the musician playing my heart out.. than a person eating salad and drinking white wine.. unhappy.. uncontented.. and feeling alone..

//file op ?

2005-08-16T20:58:00.000+10:00

++++++++mood: masaya
++++++++feel: im happy shalalala.. it so nice to be happy

++downloadin: hello picassa
++++listenin: bamboo -- alpha beta omega
++++++++doin: nothing.. :P

//file op myself
anu nga ba at ang lakas ng topak ko ngaun..
hay ewan ko ba..
last song syndrome ako lately..
asar... ARGH!

//file lpp through the dark
Traveling through the dark I found a deer
Dead on the edge of the Wilson River Road
It is usually best to roll them into the canyon
That road is narrow; to swerve might make more dead

By the flow of the taillight I stumbled back of the car
And stood by the heap, a doe, a recent killing
She had stiffened already, almost cold
I dragged her off, she was large in the belly

My finger touching her side gave me the reason
Her side was warm, her fawn lay there waiting;
Alive still, never to be born
Besides that mountain road I hesitated

The car aimed its lowered parking lights
Under the hood purred the steady engine
I stood in the glare of the warm exhaust turning red
Around our group I could hear the wilderness listen

I thought hard for us all –my only swerving –
Then pushed her over the edge into the river

//file hsl twns
hay.. naku.. grabe..
wala kaming ginawa..
halos wala kaming class....
it was very nice..
well sort of..
anu ba ito.. nakakaasar..

//file hsl dlsu-ccs
hay naku nakakaasar
natapos ko na den ang mga recollection lettter
at natutuwa ako..

//file music sponge
naeexcite ako sa linggo
ui.. sponge...
paautograph... hehe

++Self comment
ako pa la gagawa ng compilation ng chuva sa english
go english hehe.....

//file op alone

2005-08-14T16:23:00.000+10:00

++mood: no comment
++feel: desperate

+++doin: downloadin freestyle so slow
+hearin: Kung Wala Ka -- Hale

//file music freestyle
after 10 years since i deleted so slow in my pc..
nadownload ko na sya ulet.. yihee.. celebrate..

//file op bahay
hay.. walang tao sa bahay ngaun
at gutom na ako..
kc walang pagkain sa ref
ak2ali meron kaso .. YUCK.. ayoko..
hehe.. maarte..

//file itfig memories
hay cant seem to knw how to forget
that smile in your face.. please tell me
so i could move on with my life
i cant seem to know
how to live without you by my side
you are my source of life
my source of will
but please detach me
from the power that is you

//file music hale kung wala ka
natapos na ang lahat
narito pa ren ako
hetong nakatulala
sa mundo
hindi ko maiisip
hindi ko makikita
mga pangarap ko
para sayo
para sayo
OoOoOh hindi ko maiisip kung wala ka
OoOoOh sa buhay ko
nariyan ka pa ba
di ka na matanaw
kung meron madaraan
pasulong
OoOoOh hindi ko maiisip kung wala ka
OoOoOh sa buhay ko
sundan mo ang paghimig na lulan
na aking pinagtatanto
sundan mo ang paghimig koOoOoOh hindi ko maiisip kung wala ka
OoOoOh sa buhay ko

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++ self comment
wala na talaga akong magawa.. humph!

//file op pagdududa

2005-08-14T13:33:00.000+10:00

special request..
ERON -- pinakaweirdong tao sa mundo

+++++mood: masaya.. kaso malungkot
++feeling: wah.... ah.... anu nga ba?

++listenin: aNg pAg-iBig KoNg itO -- mOonStAr88
+downloadin: yahoo messenger version 7.0

+++++memo: maganda ako sa picture ngaun

//file op pagdududa
anu ba talaga itong buhay na ito.. ako ay nababagot.. hindi ko alam kung baket ako nagkakaganito.. nakakaasar na kc eh.. parang feeling ko lalong gumugulo ang buhay ko.. dahil pinapagulo ko sya.. parang kahit gusto kong makawala eh mas lalo ko pang pinoposas ang sarili ko sa mga kandena ng aking pagkalungkot..

//file op thoughts
i deserve to be happy. but i cant.. i just cant..
it doesnt happen within.. i cant seem to smile with my heart
i cant seem to find my self.. the girl i was before..
and still in the abyss of this ocean
i find you looking back staring at me
hoping i could disappear in those sea
the sea where i could submerge
where i could feel the warmth of your love..

//file bf jeona
huwaw.. wala lang kaming ginawa
kundi kumain ng masarap na pancit kanton ni nanay pressy, magphotoshoot na naman na 100 pictures sa cel ni liezl [it rhymes] at magwrestling sa mouse na hindi namin alam kung baket namin
pinag-aawayan.. i thank god na meron akong bestfriend na tulag ni jeona.. na tulad niyang memorize na ang aking pagkatao.. ang babaeng nagsasabi ng katotohanan sa akin kahit masakit.. at ang babaeng umaaway sa akin kapag sobra na ako.. parang kaming yinyan.. pag masyado nang mataas ang lipad ko eh hahatakin niya ako
para malaman kong tao pa ren ako at kailangan ako'y nasa lupa..
dahil hindi ko kayang lumipad ng wala sya..

//file oaf evs..
go evs.. kaya mo yan..
pinublish ba daw sa blog.. hehe

//file oaf denver
hay.. papunta punta pa sa bahay
tae naman.. as if naman.. feeling nia naman
nakakakaasar.. feeling naman nia na...
hay perwisyo ka talaga sa buhay ko..
so what kung may gf ka.. tinatanong ko ba
epal mo.. ayoko sayo... ARGH!

//file music cueshe ulan
lagi na lang umuulan
parang walang katapusan
tulad ng paghihirap ko ngayon
parang walang humpay
sa kabila ng lahat ng aking pagsisikap
na limutin ka hindi pa rin magawa..

//file music cueshe ulan op
oo nga di pa ren kita makalimutan kris
baket ba ang hirap mo kalimutan.. naaalala ko pa nga ung mga chat naten tuwing gabi.. parang wala ng bukas.. ang mga conversation na ten na sobrang tagal kahit may test pa kinabukasan.. at ang mga panahon na hinayaan mo akong umiyak at pinahiran mo ang aking luha ng saya.. kahit ano talaga gawin ko eh ikaw pa rin laman ng puso.. please naman.. nasasaktan na ako..

//file bloggy
huwaw na tapos ko na ren ang mano mano kong blog..
grabe ang div code.. nakakainlab..
at all thanks to jeona.. kc mahal kita.. hehe

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***self analysis..
huwaw ayoko na talaga.. wala lang.. :D

//file op confusion

2005-08-12T17:49:00.000+10:00

+++++mood:confused.. cant you see on the title?
++weather:rainy.. i can feel the rain drippin on my cheeks

+++++trip:stare at you eyes

//file op confusion
why did he say those words
those three words
which made me stare at my pc
and think for a while
maybe he didn;t look into the keyboard..
or maybe like he said
he was just sleepy...
what is happening to me
im so confuse
do you really love me
or you are making me used

//file music cueshe
infairness i like there music
i just downloaded more of their mp3s..
and i think im gonna give up and buy the album itself..
especially their song ulan..
huwaw..
kakakilabot.. u can feel it comes from the heart
as in straight from the heart..

//file music bamboo
im so hooked sa hallelujah
i mean naririnig ko na sya b4
pero anggaling eh
u can feel the sense and the rhythm
u know the emotions
and you can feel the intensity
it says it all
"kasi mahal kita"

//file oaf pg
wuaw
nakita ko sya at parang tumigil mundo ko
parang for 5 seconds eh nagrevolve ang buhay ko sa mata nia
ung mga matang bumibihag sa aking pagkatao
at ang mga mata nagbibigay pag-asang mamahalin nia ako
hindi ko alam kung sinasadya nia
ang mga sulyap na aking nakikita
pero alam ko naman ang katotohan
imposibleng maging mahal ko sya
imposible nga ba?

//file hsl twns
bonding sessions sa mcdo
nung wednesday
mejo ok naman sila
ako lang naman ang hindi
hay
i feel like they cant have room in my heart
because i wont let them in
baket pa?
eh maggagraduate din naman
mas mahirap maglet go sa buhay high school
kung tulad mo ko..

//file hsl tests
huwaw grabe
manual ko ung comp sci
mas ok na ung mapagod ang kamay
kaysa utak
kc pag kamay may nabuburn na fats
eh sa utak
pwede pang mag burn out ang fuse
ahrgh..... system shut down

//file bloggy
naayos ko na sya
kaso nga lang
eh para sa 1024 x 768 lang maganda
kc nag-ooverlap siya eh
asar.....
pano ba itong buhay na ito
ayoko na
maliit ang pc screen ko
wah......

//file oaf ian
huwaw.. knight in shining armor
takte.. grabe
hindi ko binili ang pera ko ng pagkain
pero thanks na ren sa lift
at please
wag nio na po ipagpilitan si denver
sa aken
may buhay na ako..
at ayoko na na maging parte pa sya nun

//file oaf denver
ipagpatuloy mo ang hindi paglabas ng bahay nio
maganda na kc buhay ko
please lang wag ka na manggulo
ikaw lang ang perwisyo eh

//file oaf me
i am seeing the light
it is in front of me
i can feel the light
it is slowly absorbing me
i can touch the light
the heat is burning me
it was you

//file itfig
i love you kris
pero hanggang doon lang
i need you para may hugutan ako ng emotions
i need to feel that love..
that tragic moments
and i want to thank u
u are my source of emotion

[û] collection of files [û] 11

++self comment
sleep na ako.... ZzZzZz

//file op 1148.na

2005-08-01T17:12:00.000+10:00

+++mood: swinging.. pendulum style..
+++feel: depressed.. uncertain..

+++chat: anne, jeona, dabbay, paula, anna, kasher, mad, ian
+++stat: finish ko na 2 kill.. ulitin...

+music: cueshe' , my chemical romance
+++nos: 5 new mp3..

//file festival
pumunta kami at bumili ako ng magandang necklace.....
ang kyut kaso nasira ko agad..
pero dont wori aayusin ko naman sya eh..
somehow..
baket bead craft naman den ako ha.. .
hindi lang pangelectronics.. charing

//file oaf denver
shet angulo gulo mo
pwede ba hilingin kong magdisappear ka
as in poof..
parang crunch time sa thesis
na magiging coco crunch ka.....
tapos ipapakain kita kay tommy.....

//file oaf jz
hay kahit ano ginagawa nia
hindi nia pa ren kayang iadmit na mahal nia na talaga
at kahit aminin nia..
gusto niang tuluyang mawala
at sa paraang iyon
napalitan ng suklam sa kanyang puso....

//file oaf kp
he never liked her from the start
he is just sweet
maybe that is why she fell
cause she thought that they could be
but it was all just a lie
a big fat white lie

//file op love.kills
yes love can decieve..
i pity those people who believe love can last forever..
in the next life you can't even tell..
if your gonna be inlove or not
if you'll be born out of shame
love lights up the fire
but it can easily ask the wind to blow
and kill the life within the fire..

//file responsibility
grabe...
computer society
yag [na wala namang ginagawa]
tapos ngaun
ngaun
ngaun
youth org
andami ko nang pasan...
ayoko na....
resign...
haha.
ayoko ng responsibility
gusto ko freeedom..
happinessss..
chuva
tae

//file op diploma
gusto ko na magtapos ng hsl
kc wala den naman kwenta ang math
kung magtheater ka di ba
totoo naman eh
anu un ikokompute mo ung acceleration ng voice mo
ak2ali meron den
kaso sa props na un
eh pano kung artista ka lang..
ak2ali gusto ko director
ok kinakain ko salita ko..
busog na ako..
bURP

//file op crush
so wat kung crush ko sya
he is just my crush
that is the line
his different from kris
far different from kris
and he is not significant in my life
eventhough he is yakult
i mean so wat if he has live microorganisms
what if that microorganism has a delicate function in nature
would you choose technology over nature..
me...
i'll cross that bridge when i come to it..
if ever i come to it..

//file bloggy
template change.....
change template
ahrgh!
kailangan ko na ito mabago...
pano ba magkaroon nung side scroll
anu ba ito
ayoko na.......
wah.....

[û] collection of files [û] 9

++self comment
tinatamad ako eh

//file op after.10.years

2005-07-28T15:18:00.000+10:00

*****mOod: pUzzLed?!?! mAsAyA.. mALuNgkOt.. miXed eH
**feEliNg: cuTe... :p

**yM chAt: jOlenz, pAuLa, leA, jeOna, mOnaLee, dabbay, ed, eJay, dRew
**yM MaiL: 105 new messages

*riD sTat: nAsA 1/2 ng 2 kiLL a MockIngBird

//file oaf self
ngaun ko lang iedit ang akin template..
putek....
paano ko ba babaguhin itong template na ito na may orange pa ren..
think think think....

//file oaf bp
feel nia hair nia..

//file op tampisaw
masaya sumugod sa ulan na walang payong
yumawid sa baha na hindi napasukan ng tubig ang sapatos
tumawa ng malakas sa gitna ng daan
maramdaman ang pagpatak ng ulan..
at sana sa pagbuhos ng tag-ulan
ika'y kasama magpakailanman..

//file oaf bp
di bagay..

//file oaf lb
buti di kinakarma..
ak2ali wala naman talagang karma..
pawang katotohanan lamang..

//file music cueshe.smb
woaw..
gwapo lead guitarist nila..
yiheeeee..
grabe ung americano kinareer lahat..

//file oaf denver
ang gulo mo putek..
buti maglalaho ka na sa buhay ko..
sana..
kulang na talaga jigsaw ko..

//file lpp
HAPPI BDAY WENDY..
sixteen ka na ba o seventeen..
basta brian pa ren..
yiheeeeee....
considered as PROSe ito..

//file hsl twns
woaw.. hair ko na windang.. pero okie lang..

//file hsl dlsu-ccs
woaw.. ate mads di tau nagkita.. sana safe ang yin yang ko..
sentimental value chuva..

//file me gateway..
woaw..
ala america
kaso madami vacant..
mahal kc eh..
i mean ung renta
sa space..
di ko nakita si cori..
sayang pamasahe.. :P

//file lpp
this is prose poetry..
consider math rules in english.. kei?
*******ed is my crush********
*****chan looks like ed******
******chan is my crush*******
*********(:P cOrnY)**********

//file hsl dlsu-ccs
how i miss u na people...
grabe.. miss ko na cherry red
miss ko na mga away namen ni ejay
miss ko na mga kanta ni ada
miss ko na mga kwento ni nina
miss ko na mga message ni dominic
miss ko na mga times with emman
miss ko na mga talks with lariza
miss ko na mga sessions with chekai
miss ko na mga moments with jerry
si carlo.... ah miss ko na ren un....:P
miss ko na mga orange team...
miss ko na mga facis......
miss ko na gox....
miss ko na..
miss ko..
miss..
mis..
mi..
mentally illl..
haha..
pero seryoso miss ko na talaga..
lahat ng mga nangyayari..
sa aking buhay..
nOong buwan ng abril
taong 2005......

//file oaf bp
panget....
i mean it reflects me..
di sa ken bagay buhok nia..

//file oaf self..
madami pa ren nagmamahal sa ken..
dont giv up gwen
kip on going..

//file p.s
cute ko no?
:P
pero seryoso..
cute ako..
haha..!
diary ko.....
wer r u na?

//file hsl tle.math

2. x+y+5=0
3. mdpt is (4,2) since 2y=x
4. 3x-4y-18=0
5. 4x+3y-26=0 [perpendicular kc.. so negative reciprocal]
6. 9
nakalimutan ko ung number 1 pero nasagutan ko paren
at oo nga pala..
masaya ang electronics..
kumikitang kabuhayan.. :P
mAY peNcil Na AkO!!!!!

[û] total collection of files [û] 17

//file op fake.smiles

2005-07-23T15:45:00.000+10:00

//file op fake.smiles
i cant see myself the way i use to be.. i use to laugh with my heart but i now laugh with my breath.. i used to smile with sincerity but now i smile with my teeth.. i used to kiss with love but now i kiss with pain.. i cry with my heart and wipe by my fears.. i try to stay calm but my mind is incomplete.. maybe im just problematic.. i am just makin them on my own.. but i just cant understand.. the feeling to disown.. my soul walks fast.. but my body walks slow.. please dont leave me with a past.. and a future unknown..

//file oaf self.pysho
di ko maintindihan sarili ko.. napakagulo na ng aking mundo.. di ko namalayang wala na.. ang pag-ibig na totoo.. bakit ka ba lumisan.. sa aking tabi.. kailan ko ng kaibigan.. makikinig sa aking labi.. di ko alam aking gagawin.. sana'y iyong sabihin.. sarili ko'y di kayang abotin.. kahit itanong mo pa sa akin.. ang ihip ng hangin.. nagbibigay bigat sa akin himbing.. isang tulog na sa aking nagdulot ng masamang tingin..

//file oaf pearl0015
di sya sumama sa bamboo..

//file spe cg
epal bamboo.. grabe di natuloy di ko tuloy nakita si ira... hay naku... bahala na.. tama si pearl.. grabe galing..

//file bf
narito si jeona sa bahay.. uvernyt..

//file oaf denver
buti ka pa may bago na.. ako wala pa.. stick to kris pa ren.. grabe..

//file llp castles of clay
please dont pretend u dont care..
please tell why you're standing there..
in the waterfall of my eye..
under the light of the sky..
please tell me why you're alone..
tossing sands under the stone..
why do you build a castle out of clay..
when summer is just in may..
i see the life in your smile
catching the grin for a while
why are you under the storm
when you could be at home
please tell me your goodbye
if you dont want to talk or try
just keep going to your path
in abyss of your wrath.....

//file oaf denver
epal mo! i hate u

//file oaf jk
katakot ka daw.. mumu.. natakot si barok.. shet umiyak..

//file oaf maj
sana nayakap kita kahit sandali..

anlayo ko na sa aking sarili di ko na alam aking gagawin..

internet

//file hsl tle
haha.. epal ni sir bangayan.. ikaw talaga foster ang engot mo.. yeah right.. sbi mo eh..

//file hsl july22
ah.... mp3 ni paula.. haha.. di ako nakinig grabe

//file hsl cat
tanga ko talaga.. d ko namalayan kung nsan un hairnet ni rei.. epal ko talaga..... shet!

//file op life.support

2005-07-18T14:25:00.000+10:00

//file oaf Denver
pasalamat siya at nililigawan mo sya.. kala nia.. next tym masasabunutan ko na sya

//file oaf Denver.ulet
at least naman di ko na kailangan ng make up para meron magkagus2 sa aken.. kahit nga magulo buhok ko may nagkakagusto pa ren sa aken.. eh ikaw.. shet feeling..

//file stil migs
thanks sa pagtatanggol mo sa aken sa babaeng binunburan ng make up.. shet.. kaso migs ang stick.. bad..

//file oaf pg0011
tama nga.. mejo mahilig sya magsmile.. and so.. sulet pa ren eh

//file swt basketbol.ncaa
grabe natalo ang mapua ng pcu.. Letran na lang tapos tuloy tuloy na yan hanggang finals.. pcu na.. go Letran!

//file oaf pearl0007
cute sya.. haha.. narealize ko lang mejo lately..

//file bf Jeona
hay si papa.. masarap talaga ang ulam papa.. at next tym di na po ako uuwi ng gabi nanay presy.. nga pa la ate merci musta ung kasal.. hay Miguel namiss ko kakulitan na ten chuva.. tren tren bus bus.. hay.. ate gwen.. Liezl kaya pa yan.. kau talaga si Sandra tignan mo.. at Jeona.. tama na kamera… finish na photo sessions..

//file hsl sma.chad
hay chad di ka pumunta.. nieexpect pa naman "kita".. haha gumawa ba daw ng issue.. pwera biro.. akala ko talaga pupunta sya.. kaso may practice.. hay ineexpect ka pa naman talaga ni katherine..

//file bf Jeona.ulet
send mo ung pics na ten.. unfair.. haha.. LOCKER is EVIL!

//file bf anne
hay grabe unchanging paren tau.. grabe 10 yrs na ata tau di nag-uusap pero no change pa ren.. at alam mo naman nand2 lang ako para sa iyo.. hahanap kita ng puppy na kyut.. grabe.. at sana maresolve na ung kay tin.. oo nga.. mixed emotions.. tama..

//file swt vlleybal.mervs
hay mervs.. nahatak pa la kita sa volleyball.. nice.. lets play…. Grabe no.. hay adik sa paghabol ng bola.. si barok champ di ba?

//file oaf arian0003
hay arian di mo naman sya kailangan eh.. en besides nand2 pa ako.. haha.. baket tuturuan ka ba nia sa math.. at oo nga.. lahat nga ng tao eh inaaway nia.. hayaan mo in the future pati si dense eh magsasawa na sa ugali nia..

//file hsl dlsu-ccs
hay namiss ko kau.. grabe.. emman nina.. iluvu.. sa sem break ha.. swimming.. cherry red pa ren.. hay sana magkabati na kami ni ejay.. di ba.. para masaya tau lahat..

//file oaf pg0013
oo nga.. di ka talaga palma.. at taga st.benedict ka.. pero e2 pa ren masasabi ko.. ang gwapo mo!

//file lpp el.fili
pano kaya at maging mongha ako.. I mean pano kung di maging kami ni kris at ayoko na sa tunay na mundo.. tama magmomongha ako.. oh di ba.. ala maria clara.. yiheeeeee..

//file oaf Denver
kc ikaw eh.. naiiyak na ako sa cd na ito..

//file oaf Denver.nanaman
hay sadya bang nagpapamiss ka?

//file lpp quote
the heart is in the left side of the body maybe that is why it isn’t always right? [Jeona.. l300? Remember????]

//file oaf lb0013
malay mo nga si mr un di ba.. eh pano.. shet si bp karibal! Sauce naman..

//file oaf lie0025
haha haba nga ng hair mo.. sorry mejo bad 3p kc eh.. wrong timing ka.. haha.. kita mo ba si pg? Gwapo ba?

//file hsl twns
I still feel I don’t belong.. LIFE SUPPORT.. naks hale.. go champ.. hay sarcastic na ako putek.. ayoko maging plastik tao ako..

//file hsl fire.drill
ambobo putek ano kaya un..

//file hsl ulan
sino di mababaliw sa ulaaaaaaaaaaa--aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan? Ayan nagkasipon tuloy.. haha.. sayaw kc ng sayaw eh..

//file hsl tle
dan ha.. kala ko rush Pwede naman pa lang 2 be continued.. pero ok lang masaya pa naman

//file oaf lb0016
tama ka mejo tahimik mode muna ako.. mejo lie-low para di masyado mapuna.. kc life support na ako eh.. putek..

//file stil buk.fair
clamshell 2 buk fair.. ganda kaso wala ako pera…. Huhu

//file p.s
pano maproprove ng babae na babae sya… kc sa lalake hahalikan nia lang eh.. yuck putek!

//file oaf pg0015
GWAPO MO!

//file swt vlleybal
grabe nakakainspire magvolleyball. Madame kc kalaro eh

//file [movie code] f4
haha.. nakalimutan ko ung code.. hehe.. fantastic four. Shet! hay putek corny! Pero gwapo kc si chris evans.. hay kris.. shett!

//file op close.up
hay angganda nung song grabe.. kakakilig.. sana naman eh.. hay basta,,

//file itfig phone.cal
grabe kilala paren ako ng kuya nia.. that is what matters pero at least nag-usap kami kahit mejo 10 minutes lang.. mejo understandable kc may pasok da next day at 10 pm na ako tumawag.. haha.. pero wat matters is nakausap ko sya.. at feeling ko naman eh masaya sya sa buhay nia.. sana naman ay tuloy tuloy na.. kc masaya ako kung san ka masaya! Yiheeeeee

//file p.s
diary ko nasan ka na.. Ayoko na ng pad paper.. mapupuno na sya!!!!!!!
panget si EMERSON DIONISIO! PANGET

//file op intermidi8.pad.paper

2005-07-15T21:38:00.000+10:00

//file oaf pearl0001
first observation ko sa kanya. she is quite amusing. that is why she and kris are close friends. take not pearl and i has the same birthday and pearl also had a crush on kris. she is only a year older than me. so im young.

//file itfig jealousy
hay jealous ako kay pearl buti pa sya nakakausap nia si kris.. hmph! jealous ako talaga. i mean.... wah! oo na kasalanan ko na.. it is all my fault.. gaga kc ako eh.. mahal ko nga pero di ko masabi.. stil a universe away ka pa ren.. kris! putek!

//file bp0007
may mp daw sya. yeah ryt..

//file oaf pearl0002
sana marealize nia swerte sia friend nia si kris..

//file hsl p6.rum
hay malamig sa pwesto ko... masarap matulog.. so sad.. mejo maganda lesson kaso nadadala ako ng antok.. ZzZZzZzZzZzZzZz

//file oaf pc0002
2log.. soreeeee di pa la.. nakahiga lang.. sa bag.. ay rewind, umiglip pa la sya...

//file CRB0013
fanny fan.. cute.. yellow na may orange...

//file stil simple smile
tama si maxinne sulet ang smile pag minsan lang.. kakainluv.. pero ayoko na mainluv.. ansaket kc eh..

//file oaf panaginip0003
2log sa p6 rum.. GALUNGGONG.. e2 2log talaga.. promise!

//file bp0006
yeah right. i dont belong with u!

//file ulam.at.kanin
si kanin unang nakalagay sa plato. tapos nung nilagay na si adobo.. nag-usap sila. gusto kc ni kanin si adobo maging kasama sa kutsara.... kaso nabastos si kanin nung tinanong ni adobo kung ilang ulam na ba nakasama mo.. grabe.. hay sayang.. bagay pa naman adobo at kanin..

//file oaf rods0004
151 text messages pa lang.. go go go

//file oaf pearl0003
tinatawag nia akong ate.. nice.. pwede pwede.. ok naman sya eh..

//file oaf pg0003
haha.. public ka na ngaun.. gwapo mo! epal.. black paypay..

//file stil shoulder
masarap maramdaman na may masasandalan ka.. na hindi magtatanung kung baket ka umiiyak at kung baket tila naaantok ka.. masarap sumandal sa mga balikat na kahit di mo pa masyado comfortable eh sumasalo sa iyo.. at tamang tama ang timing ng katamaran mo sa pagsalita.. thanks ha!

//file oaf denver
bahala ka.. i hate u.. ansama mo.. pero mas masama ako sa iyo..
wahahaha.. pakshet.. s2pid lies.. sawa na ako..

//file music bamboo
see u on friday..

//file hsl english
hay may reporting.. 10 yrs na.. di pa ren kami nagrereport..

//file hsl di.ko.kakausapin
si ajhon, si manalang, si bubu, si pj, si emerson.. haha.. bahala kau.. beh.. pero sauce naman.. as in..

//file oaf rods0005
can rodine wait? 20 days na lang..

//file oaf rods0006
kakatunaw text ng nanay mo

//file oaf rods0007
yehey natapos ko na text messages..

//file oaf rods0008
bagay sila ni mima.. kyut sighting sa quad..

//file oaf mima0004
mima.. kyut.. kakaaliw sya..

//file oaf pg0004
sasayaw mo kaya ako kung may prom?

//file oaf lb0005
yikeeeee.. mr.. hahaha..

//file oaf lb0007
ay di na si b1 at b2.. ok lang.. straight guy dapat..

//file hsl tle.task
accomplishedddddd....... wahuuuu..

//file oaf pg0005
thanks sa ace hardware.....

//file p.s
wah na ako matype.. nawawala diary ko.. kaya padpaper muna.. diary!!! wer r u

//file oaf people.oa

2005-07-11T11:16:00.000+10:00

//file mlb hale da.day.u.said.gudnyt
take me as u are
push me off the roof
the sadness i need this time to be with you
im freezin in the sun
im burnin in the rain
the silence im screaming callin out ur name
and i do reside in ur light
put out the fire with me and find
yeah u lose the side of ur circles
that's what i'll do if we say gudbye
to be is all i got to be
and all that i see and all that i need this time
to me the life you gave me
the day you said goodnight
the calmness in ur face
that i see through the night
the warmth of ur light is pressin unto us
you didn't ask me why
i never would have known
oblivion is falling now
if u could only know me
like your prayers at night
then everythin between you and me will be alright
she's already taken
she's already taken
she's already taken me
the day you said goodnight

//file sOp cg pic music hale

//file oaf am0008
krs didn't see am.. and krs is worrying since am is really falling for aa.. wen everyone knows that aa is a total jackass.. and besides aa is so called loyal to kb.. if u know what i mean.. krs is now worrying that is am really falled.. aa will not catch am. pc is now also worried.. i mean krs just shared it to pc.. but it is way obvious.. al is now also worried but is just laying low.. jz on the other hand has a lot more problems but jz said am aint dumb enough to fall.. am is just being blind to the truth..

//file oaf db0001
this is the first file regarding db.. db is now in the stage of fallin for fg.. well many people thinks so.. the people says that db never acts that way among people.. and i think fg may have noticed it.. i dont know but i think fg is starting to get the picture.. fg is so low in pace when it comes to love.. but fg thinks that fg is not ready for commitment.. that is why fg turned oo down.. ok ok.. db also has a delayed trust with fg.. so wen they will be beaus i think that nothing will work out the way it should be..

//file oaf mom0002
well, this is the first but i want it to start with number 2.. mom is now in the process of blaming krs for everything krs does. even the slightest mistakes krs does is a huge hole in the net.. st01 is also in the process of destroying the wholesome relationship between mom and krs.. poor mom and krs.. wen will their relationship ever be stable..

//file music m.y.m.p. op
do u know the goodbye song? it is good.. and juris is a sweet dear.. she is pretty humble even though she has gone a long way now..

//file oaf bp 0002
this file can be classified also in //file sOp abc
you know what i mean.. bp is now an ass. anyways bp just send a msg to the yg.. so dumb.. putek..

//file hsl sma reunion
mejo nagkaroon ng conting reunion sa sma.. pero hindi sa personal aspects.. mejo sa conference ng ym naman.. nandun sila ces, joms, len, jacq, caren, chad, jamil, rosanna... sorry sa di ko namention.. at marami den naging topic.. mejo masaya naman sila eh... so tawa na lang tau.. si rj nga pa la nasa neuva ecija na.. grabe anlayo.. hay.. anu ba itong buhay na ito..

//file bf pic0089

cute namin ni jeona noh???? eto ung panahong kami ay pumunta sa isang lugar at kaming mga candy girls at napadpad sa robinsons.. tapos itong pic na ito ay sa harap ng kameraworld sa may pedro gil wing.. nariyan nga si ejay noong mga panahong iyon dahil cinocourt nia paren si vida noon..

//file faq

week [date] -- happening ng week
oaf [code] -- observation among friend
sOp [] -- some organizations n projects
- cg -- candy girls
- abc -- anti bp club
- hf -- haribon foundation
- yag -- young artists guild
- dlsu.sc.ccs -- summer camp people
itfig [words] -- if the feeling is gone [kris]
hsl [] -- hi-skul life
- sma -- st. marys academy
- twns -- townes batch 06
- clvn -- calvin batch 05
- rf -- rutherford batch 04
swt [sports] -- sports wise talks
op [topic] -- opinion about a topic
dis [issue] -- dangers in the street
music [band] -- music life
mlb [band] [s] -- music lyrics bundle of songs
bf [number] -- bestfriend thingies
llp [title] -- literature prose poetry
crb [number] -- comfort room blubs
stil -- simple things in life
www -- world wide web
p.s -- pahabol sana
midl -- magick in daily life spells.. thoughts to ponder

more to come pa yan mga codes na yan..

//file p.s nga.pa.la
NICA stands for Now In College Admission Process..
Go JOms!

//file lpp feelin.subside

2005-07-11T05:51:00.000+10:00

while the moon takes the sky
into her gentle light..
the feeling of hurt
is deprived inside..
my hopes are low
the faith cant grow..
i cant remember
how far did i go..
how did i leave
the memories we made.
how can i see
the past youve create..
how can i know
how to love once more..
when you've stolen the key
to door of my soul..
i want to stop myself
from stumbling once more..
but i cant teach the heart
to understand or to know..
my mind wants to picture
the image of you..
but i cant
cause ive forgotten
the things that you do..
i want to see ur face..
ur same sweet smile..
those eyes which glimmer
in the mid summer night..
the arms in where
i cried when i fall..
the hands which told me
to stand up and fight no more..
the back that carried
my body when i cried in the corner
the lips that pressed
to kiss me goodnight..
the image i see
you walking in my life
how i wish i could dance
in the lake and sink..
in to the abyss of ur love..
into the soul of your kiss.
please ground me now..
i am flyin so high..
let me go as this feeling
subsides in my life..
i feel the pearls leaving the shell
the shell; the cage
which locked them in
i can feel the pearls
running down my cheek
i can feel the hand
catching them from within
i am falling again
i can stop myself
i want to cry in your arms
i want to hold your kiss
i want to die in this life
with you by my side
i want to see the night sky
in the heart of your lips
as we again try to know ourselves
try to know the ones we never knew
try to hope the hope we never could
try to love the love we didn't have
but the clock went pass
the time of in life
when i thought you could be mine
i hope we could hope some more
you said you could love me even longer
but i walked away
from the love you gave
i cant run away from this chance
the chance to say goodbye
i wouldn't forget u
cause i cant though i try
but please believe me
i wouldn't leave you behind..
i want you to know
from the bottom of my soul
i still love you
cause though this feelin subsides
i cant run away from the truth
even though the love's locked inside..

//file week july09

2005-07-10T14:26:00.000+10:00

coz there is a blue sky
waitin tomorrow
waitin tomorrow
shinin shimmerin
blue sky waitin tomorrow..
>>hale

hay antagal ko na atang hindi tumutok sa internet.. sbi nga nila lahat nagbabago kahit gano mo gustong iretain ung nakasanayan..

e2 lang naman ang mga files na aking masasabi..

//file sOp ABC
the abc project is now continually growin.. it stands for anti BP club.. not bank of the philippines or the usual blood pressure but the black pig.. the dreaded black pig which leads the human race to extinction.. not the black pig species but the black pig person.. i mean the fat assed girl who sits with her tshirt possessing a huge hole she created herself.. ang i mean it in a caring way..
KRs never almost attend since BP was there.. and to KRs most unluckiness KRs sat beside BP in the jeepney.. It was by force and KRs was totally disgusted. POor KRs.. How i pity the chair where BP sat.. it will be forever be embedded by the awful smell BP projects..

//file dis nappin.101
when u have no celpone and the person beside u is askin 4 it.. be totally indirect in sayin u have no celfone.. this person i knew with the codename.. DL rode by the jeepney.. The gud thing was DL had a friend with a codename PG.. and luckily DL didnt panicked and derived a creative way of indirectly statin DL didnt possess any.. DL communicated with PG in such a way they were using a literary device called FLASHBACK.. so next time, never ride a bus or a jeepney without the calmness in yourself.. and the communication not only with friends but with GOD..

//file swt volleyball.cons
wen u are playin volleyball never drink a whole pitcher of ice cold water after the game.. especially when ur the captain ball. ull end up one week with a broken voice and a sore throat.. soon to be accompanied by a runny nose that u have to chase all the way..

//file sOp unang.hirit
not really a school organization but it is a project.. the most prestigious students of the most prestigious school of the country cannot justify the fact that 10 divided by 1/2 minus 4 is equal to 16.. instead they just proved that when under pressure a smart person would be totally insane.. how odd to not know that it was samuel ong in the issue behind the wiretappin in the latest gma-garci.. and if u know what i mean.. artist have a higher phase to go before they reach the stratosphere's boundary and find themselves suffocating and reaching the ground below.. fake lahat.. hai bahala kau!

//file oaf am001
AM is now in the stage of deny the fact that AM is falling for AA.. and AM is so pitiful since AA is a heart breaker with no hearts to look for.. AA's mouth is full of flowers which AA give to those who are light and are easy to take.. AA is like a dog begging but the one who walks the owner.. KRs pity AM but KRs cannot find a way to wake AM to the truth.. the power of love is undisputed.. number 1.. but often its power is misused

//file op comma.inside
eventhough one is awake.. one cannot really distiunguished the fact from the hallucination.. one can sometimes form images that these images replace the memory of the ones who love them.. the presence of the ones who love them.. it is not enough that the person is in comma and lay in a bed.. it is hard to accept when there is nothing you can do but sit there.. stand up.. awaitin the day.. that from comma.. the person will come back to life and nothin ever happpened.. it is more difficult to enjoy the life you have when deep inside you lock yourslef in your room crying.. what is EVEN more difficult is that if the person in the bed wants to lay forever when the people who look after him wants him to stand up...

//file oaf swt basketbol.spirit
when a game really matters and u know you've played your part.. you don;t notice the fact that the reason your team is up there all because you had 5 lay ups in the first half of the quarter.. you seem to have grounded yourself and when the 3 points end shot doesn;t go into the ring you feel unappreciate.. i admire bullet a lot since he cried when he saw the ball escaped from the hoop. and i admired him more when i saw him asking for forgiveness to the rest of the team.. bullet has a long way to go in basketball.. and i admire him for stickin to the ground and for humbling himself.. when in fact he is exalted..

//file itfig 1251
i now hold the key to my heart.. it no longer belong to him.. but i know that if fate really meant well.. we would see each other.. and i would return the key to him if that time comes.. i will just watch him as he walks by the corners of the street.. wearing his polo.. and some notebooks in his hand.. when the time is right i wish to whisper my thanks that through him.. i knew how to love..

//file oaf bf l300.0067
i remember when JK told KRs she was pretty that no boy in skul noticed that.. it was a fact.. yet KRs only replied that no one deserves the beauty she has.. i was a nice complement.. yet i believe that being beautiful in the outside projects the inside of a person.. one cannot see the beauty in others if one doesn't stop to smell the roses.. beauty is not a mere thought.. beauty is a universal fact.. found in the beheld.. yet unseen by the eye of the beholder..

//file oaf CRB 0005
KRs went out the bathroom in perfectally black and red towel covered in soap and shampoo.. just to answer a friend's call..

//file swt UAAP 07op
maganda cheering ng ust undisputed talaga.. lasalle nanalo sa badminton.. wala na ako masay.. well mejo malakas ang up sa basketball ngaun.. pero feeling ko feu na naman ata magbabag ng first place.. depende kung matalo nila ateneo at lasalle.. un ang mejo malakas lately eh..

//file op msn War.Of.Worlds
steven speilberg is the best.. you really know the value of family and the ultimate PRO of the SURPRISE ENDING... LOVE YAH ROBBY..

//file oaf denver 2july
wala masyadong improvement.. ayun usap chuva.. at tinakwil nia ako nung thursday.. buti may patrick pa ako! haha

sige...
bubye

coz theres a blue sky waitin tomorrow

kara

//file itfig sa.kanya

2005-07-04T11:33:00.000+10:00

mejo matagal tagal ako hindi nag online at siguro ang masasabi ko lang ay masaya naman ang aking buhay.. kc ineenjoy ko sya ng sobra..
basta masaya ako ok na.. alam mo un.. hindi naman sa wala akong pake sa ibang tao pero so what.. kung ano man isipin nila sa aken eh problema na nila iyon.. y should i bother.. i wouldn't care less..

//file swt NCAA 07op
well..
masya manood ng ncaa.. at nagpaplano akong papanoorin ko den ang future games nila.. eh enjoy ako doon eh.. tapos gwapo nung aljamal.. si yousef.. kaso sabi ni teo bano daw sya.. pero kyut sya.. haha.. uy kilig! ay masakit nga pa la talaga sa ngipin ang go nuts donuts.. as in.. masaket kaya sya.. nangingilo na ngipin ko! wah!
//file hsl mejo.bad.3p
sa skul.. wala ako masyado pake sa mapeh.. kc ginisa nila ako noong nagreport ako sa health.. pero ok lang kc enjoy naman.. at least nag-iinteract sila sa aken.. abnormal hallucination.. haha.. at naprove ko na na walang taong mentally healthy.. totally impossible.. since wala naman taong walang frustration di ba.. at lahat ng tao at some point may maladjustments.. naks.. in fairness na aapreciate ko na ang mapeh... sa cat.. well kawawa talaga ung tshirt nia.. i mean ni bp. basta long story.. lawlaw bra.. en if u think na masama ako.. ok lang.. the truth hurts.. haha!
sa compsci finite.. la den ako care.. swerte ako at matatalino mga kagroup ko sa compsci walang ka effort effort.. sa finite.. bobo naman talaga ako sa math at tanggap ko na iyon.. at least i know my weakness at tanggap ko sya.. tsaka first quarter pa lang naman.. tsaka no big duh.. mga ptolemy sila so it is expected na ganun sila.. magulat na lang ako kapag si joms perfect.. di ba? or si jeona? or ako!
sa noype...ah... no comment.. epal sya.. un lang period!
sa social.. free time lage.. pero baka maging math na sya.. sana wag muna.. at if ever pumasok na ung teacher namen tulog time na lang..
sa english... i like ms. correa a lot.. nagigising ako sa kanya.. at parang naiidulge kang makinig sa kanya.. kc syempre.. nakakagulat nga.. hay.. bahala na sa groupings.. if they dont wanna listen that is there problem.. i ll still listen.. doesnt mean na gagawin ko sa kanila un ginagawa nila sa aken..
sa anu pa ba.. humanities.. what is cultured? what is refined.. the point is [i miss jeona] wala namang ganun.. sabi nga ni jeona.. di mo kailangan magpakababa para mareach level nila.. so what i ur crazy// ibig sabihin lang noon eh may sarili kang identity.. at hindi ka normal.. kung ano man ung normal... na un.. ambobo naman kc eh.. leche..
sa physics.. epal ung epal.. alam nio na iyon.. pero di ako galit sa kanila.. that is their instinct.. tsaka for what pa.. wala na den namang mangyayari sa kanila eh.. at least sila depressed sa buhay nila kc ayaw nilang madepress pero depress sila.. eh si jeona gusto niang depress siya so indirectly masaya sia.. the correct term is contented sya.. which is what matters..
sa ad chem.. mabait si mam.. promise.. as in.. pero bisaya talaga sya.. period..
sa math.. mejo nakikinig na ako at may natututunan na ako.. kaso talaga mahirap lang ako makapick up.. at un naman talaga problem ko..
sa french.. huh? uh..... ok lang sya..... tulog powers.. at oo nga pa la.. may inside french dictionary na ako.. kaya mejo ginagago ko na lang ung subject na iyon//
sa tle.. sheeeeeet.. basta pader ako at bumalik na lang sa upuan.. haha.. nakakatawa sya infairness.. la lang.. mejo enjoy ako.. at least di ba.. no problems...

//file oaf problems.me
well nagkaroon ako ng problems..
inaasar nila ako kay emerson.. pero di naman problema iyon..
erase erase// bali asar powers ito.. di sya problem..
at epal paren si bp..
nagkaroon ng misunderstanding sa amen ni denver pero ok lang kc friends forever sila ni tommy.. nagkabati pa ren naman kami eh..
si geb.. di binigay ung book//
pero ok lang.. kc so???? haha
si jeona di sumama sa overnyt.. pero ok lang den
kc kailangan ngang ideprieve ang sarili.. asteeeeeg..
so over all wala pa la ako problema.. anu ba ito//

//file sOp candy.girls
ay nagovernyt kame kila anna.. ansaya to da MAX..
gwapo ng HALE.. pati ung drummer toner.. haha
kilig ako shet.. gwapo ni CHAMP...... wah......

nasaya magsimba.. so sort of complete na buhay ko
balance..

kawawa si abby.. peti ung tshirt.. grabe awawang awa ako sa tshirt na iyon.. sobra!

//file itfig sa.kanya
at regarding da title..
sa kanya paren ako babalik
kc nasa kanya pa ang susi ng puso ko..
sinarado nia kc ung pintuan kaya walang makakapasok..
tipong ang masasabi ko eh wala ako kung wala sya..
at masaya na ako simply dahil mahal ko sya..
nung narinig ko boses nia sa phone..
parang timugil ang oras at panahon..
at nalaman ko sa sarili ko..
na sya talaga na numpa sa puso ko..
wala akong magagawa kahit di ako muslim..
dahil na sa kanya wala sa aken..

ok nagrhyme sya.... wOOw.. freakHee...

ang ibig kong sabihin
eh mahal ko pa ren si kris..
ok na ba?

yun..
kahit di man kami maging kami
ok lang..
kc single until i die ako..
it was a promise..
at sana lang kung nasaan man sya
alam nia na may nagmamahal sa kanya..

i dont expect anything
as in..

kc nga mahal ko sya...
oh yan ha....
inamin ko na..
kris talaga!

//bubye na..

//file week june22

2005-06-23T16:35:00.000+10:00

// file june 22

the day today is june 22 and it is a wednesday..
yes a wedensday nanaman.. as usual..

what just happen for the past days..
let me tell yah..

//file june 18 saturday

in the transition of the days i went outside..
at sa walang magawa si arianne
eh tinakot niya ako dahil ganito iyon..
nakaupo ako doon sa motor ng kanyang daddy dearest.. at ako ay masayang nagkukwento kay denver.. nang biglang tumayo si ariane at hindi ko alam at bigla niyang naovercome ang aking weight at ako ay napatapon sa wall.. sayang di ko na hit.. anyways.. kinapos ako ng hininga at tada... hinika ako.. natakot silang lahat at nagtangkang gisingin ang aking mother pero hindi nila ginising.. gradually, naging normal ang breathing ko at infairness ala lang alala sila sa aken.. touch.. wah! pero nahuli den ako ni mama na lumabas.. at grounded ako for guess what.

ISANG ARAW!!!

yes one day lang.. bait ng mama ko no.. pero may deal kami no.. indi naman ganun kaluwag si mama.. basta iyon ang nangyari..

//file june 19 sunday

di nanaman ako nagsimba.. ambad ko naman.. eh kasalanan ko ba hindi naman ako ginising ni mama.. pero matanda na ako dapat kaya ko na gisingin ang sarili ko.. well, hindi naman nag-aalala si densel.. at mejo oks naman.. pero di bumaba si denver.. baket kaya? hay ewan ko ba sa kanya.. anyways// si ariane naman eh nagsosorry sinabi ko na nga na ok eh sorry pa ren ng sorry.. pero anyways.. ang masasabi ko lang eh mejo masaya naman ako ngaun mga panahong ito.. dapat happy man pa ren kahit mejo mejo rapunsel ako.. ngaun officially na seal ang kasunduan namin ni mama.. at ang hindi sumunod eh papalayasin.. ngek! pero syempre kahit panakot. nakakatakot naman talaga eh.. basta un.. at wala akong allowance.. well magkakaroon din naman ako pero on school days lang.. basta alam nio na iyon no..

//file june 20 monday

mejo ok na kami ni mama.. pero sa baba na ako natutulog ngaun.. syempre ang kapal naman ng face ko kung hindi ko gawin un no.. duh! anyways.. ang weight ko eh 5 kg sabi noong stupid weighing machine.. liliit din yan.. pero kaweight ko lang si paula.. at nagdecrease ang aking height.. from 165 eh naging 164.. anu kaya un.. nagdecrease.. anu yan may osteoporosis ako eh fourteen pa lang ako.. i am only fourteen.. anyways.. sa aking katangahan eh nahulog ako sa upuan ng aming dakilang p6 class.. napakadakila ng class na iyon at hanga ako sa aming teacher na si sir bautista.. at alam mo bang wala naman kaming masyadong ginawa ngaun araw na ito.. biruin mo ba naman eh walang pe.. walang pe at ako ay nagdala ng pe uniform.. alam mo ba un.. excellence forever nga,,. leche.. tapos wala makulit ako today.. di bagay kay rodine ung walang bigote.. mukha syang bakla.. pero sabi nga nia masasanay din daw ako.. anyways di dala ni jeona ang picture so wala pa akong madadag dag sa pahinang ito.... hopefully.. hay jeona.. ireport mo na kasi sa pulis na ninakaw nga nia..

//file june 21 tuesday

ako ay absent today.. at nagising ako ng 900 am .. filler si tito nuno na cutting ngera ako! duh di ako tulad ng anak nia na ayaw mag-aral.. he leche.. anyways ang akin pang masasabi eh ako ay nagparecopy ng aking 2 by 2 picture para sa UP.. at madami nga pa lang mascians sa Up.. pati nga si karen ng reontgen ay aking nakita.. pati na ren si jesserie na kakarera ni tricia eh nakasalubong ko.. ngunit ang masasabi ko eh napakaswerte ng araw na ito.. kami ay number 39 sa pila at madali kong nakuha ang aking test permit.. ako ay kukuha ng pagsusulit sa araw ng sabado sa ika anim ng agosto sa oras na 6 30 ng umaga sa matayod na infrastructurang nagngangalang SOlair.. malapit lang sya sa university avenue.. ung lang ang ako ay absent.... maganda iyon.. at oo nga pa la.. nakita ko sila edison sa mrt.. pati na ren si gie.. whatever the spelling is.. at ang lalakeng gumising sa aken noong math camp..
at oo nga pa la.. ako ay masaya.. dahil lahat ng tao ay nagkabati ngaun including me and denver.. o di ba.. malupet lang doon eh nabastos ako sa kanya kapatid.. at past is past.. nasabi ko naman ang saloobin ko at siguro naman eh natuto na sya.. hay naku sarah.. better timing next time.. bagong gising kasi ako tapos binad 3p ako..

//file june 22 wednesday

increase in allowance.. 190 na sya ngaun.. la lang.. at infairness nakakabad3p.. eto lang masasabi ko for today..

electricfan
mentally healthy
sir bangayan
foot rug
liar
toothbrush
sandwich
free time
celphone ni anna
nanay ni ana
constipated
monalisa ni reichelle
p6, ad chem and math

ayun na ata ang mga phrases na makakadescribe sa aking skul.. thanks to candice for the advance chemistry table.. to damien for my mathematics homework, to anna lea for the answers in the ad chem paper.. to paula for the 20 pesos.. jeona for my pe notebook.. rei for that remarkable storie.. complete with action and expression.. and for denver.. basta.. kasi mabait kaung lahat.. kaya ako ay nagpapasalamat.. pati pa la kay knick knacks para sa sulatan ever namin dalawa.. at kay densel para sa morning service along the roads of annex45 and hawaii circle.. IDOL pre.. anyways iyon lang ang nangyari sa aking maikling araw...

the coin is flipping na..
seven nga eh parang number ko na..
hindi na sya malas..
wala na ngang malas sa aken..
lahat swerte..
di ba....?

You Are the Enthusiast

7

You are outgoing and playful - always seeing the happy side to life.

You're enthusiastic and excitable. You love anything new.

Multi-talented, you do many things well... and find success easy.

You prefer to keep things light with others. Opening up is hard for you.

What number are you?

//kAra

//file week june18

2005-06-19T05:28:00.000+10:00

today is june 18, 2005..
and it is a saturday..

happening's for the past few days...

.mOndAy.

well i had no classes today which meant i was stuck inside the house all day long.. well not all day.. gradually, i went outside almost for the whole day together with the people in this annex 45. yes, the people from this block.. i know this is not like annex 17 or the venezuela but i am actually making friends in this block right now.. is that gud news or what.. well sorta.. but not.. i hope classes would stop quickly i dont feel at ease with my classmates nor my teachers. they are both uncooperative...

.TuEsdAy.

well, i rushed to the room of townes and find that there was no classes.. well there was but who cares. .i just want to get a diploma right now... well, i have the cellular phone of jeona the whole day.. takin avid pictures of me and my classmates.. and also i texted denver.. who might he be? well just a friend.. just a friend that hopes to be my beau.. yeah right.. i want to be single forever.. i have a copy of the may issue of candy now but i cant find where it is.. yes.. a lot like me... i bought a resistor at the metropolis and planned to just go home in muntinlupa.. but luckily mom didn't notice the time frame... lucky lucky me.. and also she bought me an orange hair pony thingie.. that thingie..... flipped coin? i hope..

.wEdnEsdAy.

it rained today.. and life showed me both sides of the plate.. i mean of the coin.. the harsh side and the nice side.. well the day went great and not at the same time.. i went to the room of moseley only to find that jeona didn't have her celphone with her.. and then i borrowed the celphone of jeona.. i was pretty wasted this day since we had 7 hours of nonstop class torture.. 7 hours.. can u believe that.. the skul is killin me! but time flew when it was in the afternoon..
also, denver fetch me.. and we spent 2 hours and 45 minutes together.. which is a lucky number to me.. after all it is 11.. but there was a huge toad or frog in the road! and the toad was freaky.. then mom scolded me.. too perfect.. not!

.tHuRsdAy.

today well, it was an okay day.. rodine doesn't have the mustache anymore.. and i got a free ride to skul today.. courtesy of vianney.. but she was scolded by her father.. PArents.. they want to ruined your day but want u to be fine.. that is pretty freaky. but the universal truth.. and anyways.. what did i do today? i dont know.. maybe slept by a few classes.. talked until i got tired and ate the lunch combo.. sandwich banana c2.. that combo i mean.. anyways.. i dont know what happened.. i am now rapunsel.... locked in the kingdom with the huge castle stairs and the deadly dragon..

.fReedAy.

shutter... and calvin was a blast.. how i missed my section so much.. so much that i want to burst into tears and joy wen i was with them... but i really want to be with them in every single way possible.. also denver and i had a dared.. to not go out of the house.. but he broke it first.. and i want to tell you i am officially rapunsel.. but i am a happy rapunsel. like the happy man.. except i have my shirt on.. and also i am improving since i got two zeros and yet i am still happy. isn't that a big lift of confidence... well, yes it is.. at least im happy.. and also i just want to share that nick was in the front of the house until 12 am.. yes until 12 am.. and i just want to tell u i was touched.. after calvin this.. i mean it is ok if mom scolds me more.. but it is weighed off by the goodness these people show to me..

.sAtUrdAy.

i dont know.. im stuck in the house.. and i am officially stuck.. i am really rapunsel.. have faith in myself.. that is what my horoscope said// well.. i have.. i hope.....

//end of the week..

//file op swit.yet.harsh

2005-06-16T14:54:00.000+10:00

the day started without pehm..
lucky start...
wait and see..

after that particular subject
i got to a torture of 7 straight hours of no break time..
this includes the dreaded tle.. in mr.bangayan's clutches

and the two hour seminar in the room of mam gallardo..
hey i just got 9 out of ten in the sorta review quiz!
yes that review quiz in computer science..
to be honest i don't feel like being the cs fanatic i was..
i just want to graduate..

as in graduate in lasalle
get a job
transfer at up diliman..
for the play i mean..
or maybe i should audition in the gantimpala theater in
luneta..
yep...
that theater in manila..

ok...
so i do have a future in the so called it technology///
yeah the information technology..

well..
i just want to graduate....
honestly...
and to have that diploma in my wall..
hanging!

and also i want to be a mentally healthy person..
like anyone is healthy...
yeah right.....

wendy and ariane stopped by....
that is all i guess...
and rodine has nothing to say but the buzz beep..

yeah....
the buzz. beep......

//file lpp fear.of.losin.oneself

2005-06-12T16:12:00.000+10:00

i feel like i am a stranger to myself...
not to the world but only to myself..
when i see the face i was before
i just look up the sky to remember how to know..

how to know about smiling, laughing
sleeping, dreaming ang continue on pursuing.....
how to love and live the life i was born to
how to find my self like no one could do..

i feel like i am a stanger in my own mind
i feel like the truth is unwind
i want to scream like no one could hear
i want to cry with no falling tear

i see myself in the mirror across the street
wishing ang hoping i could be complete
wishing the world will go back in time..
in the times i knew you were mine

but now i see myself alone in this life
where everybody left me without a sign
i sitting here waiting here in the dark alone

those days are gone.. and the laughter has faded
i cant find a reason for me to stay laid..
i want to get up but i just cant try
coz this feeling can t make me touch the sky

i want to know why i became like this
i want to know why my tear just in the abyss
please tell me why it hurts inside
cause i feel i cant make it collide

the feeling of being myself
is losing as i speak..
she walks fast i walk slow
she answers while i don't know

hoping ill find you someday
i retrieve you in each and every day
trying my best to do my part
hoping i was the one i were from the start..

//file itfig may31

2005-06-01T10:47:00.000+10:00

hay alam mo ba/...
sobrang naaasar ako....

dahil ako ay isang torpe

pero dapat pakipot//

babae ako..

ngunit hindi ko mapigilang
na..

nanatotorete kapag ikaw na...

tipong kachat nga kita

dinadaan ko lang sa tanung
pero sa totoo ang mga tanung na iyon

ay dahil sa iyo..

at sana..

ako ay iyong mapansin..

dahil alam mo bang..

ika'y ninanaais makasama....

sana hindi ka ganyan kabait..

nakakaasar kc//

kinikilig ako..

pero hindi naman dapat..

dahil anu nga ba ako sa iyo?

at sana nababasa kita...

hindi un tipong

nagbabasa ako ng libro

na baliktad pa la..

alam mo

feeling ko
kaya kong labanan ang mundo

kapag ika'y kasama ko..

at sana..

sana...

makasama naman kita..

kahit minsan..

sumikat ang araw..

na paggising..

ikaw ay nasa aking balikat..

mahimbing na natutulog

at sana..

maabot kita..

at makapiling

kahit sa pagbilog ng buwan

ika'y makita..

at iyong masabi sa akin..

na "mahal kita"..

//file op vitale.life

2005-05-28T06:21:00.000+10:00

vitale..

when told in english it means
in the edge

but when told in italian
it means life

vita.. lives

i am quite lucky to be frank

i have everything i need

i can eat well

i can sleep..

i have a family that cares

and i can lay back

and relax..

eventhough medyo gipit ngaun

mababawi naman ung mga pera na iyon

hay....

hindi ko ba alam..

sabihin ko ng mababaw ang kaligayahan ko

at isa akong mababaw na tao..

pero syempre nasasaktan pa ren ako

tao ako eh

di ba?

sino ba naman hindi masasaktan

kahit sabihin mong manhid ka

nakakaradam ka pa rn ng tuwa..

ng saya..

ngunit hindi mo lang pinapansin

sa totoo lang

ang pagiging manhid ay pagiging ignorante

na tipong wala kang pake..

at kung wala kang pake sa nararamdaman ng iba

wala kang kwentang tao..

//file op o.m.g

2005-05-27T11:14:00.000+10:00

alam mo ba
na na
na na
nag breakdown ang aking pc
as in sobrang
breakdown..

epal ang microsoft..

kc basta..

ang epal..

enden..

EVS to the ReSCUe/

hehe..

thankshu evs...

wherever u are

anyways..

sumali ako sa HARIBON FOUNDATION..

hahaha..

as in Haribon FOundation/

may annual fee sya..

ay 500 pesos un..

at least nakakatulong na ako sa enviroment
di ba?]

oh....
ok ba?

pero mas maganda na ren iyon..

di ba....

save the environment!!!!!!!!

GO GWEN...

hahaha...

bukas OUTING NG CALVIN...

hay saan ako kukuha ng money....
ewan ko ba.....

kahit 100 lang..
basta dapat may film akong dala....

para picture picture...

haha

tsaka makikita ko na si 3cia..

sheeeeeet..

achievement iyon sa buhay ko..

dapat ipepersuade ko sya

na mag-aral..

which reminds me...

the italian of that is persuasione..

nagkaroon lang ng e.
at iba ung accent..

haha....
go gwen....

anyways.....
bubye summer...

hello school!

//file op eroismo

2005-05-26T06:43:00.000+10:00

haha....
another italian word i just learned nanaman
heroism..

naaalala ko si carina
kasi yun yung piece niya noong siya
ay sumali doon sa contest about...

oratorical blah blah...

hay nako..
ano nga ba ang heroism..

yan napaisip ako..

tipong sila andres bonifacio
jose rizal..
melchora aquino
george washington
julius ceasar
alexander the great

Moses???????

di ba sila yung mga hero ng mundo..

pero come to think of it
ano nga ba ginawa nila

bat sila may mga rebulto..

nasolve ba nila world hunger
naging kadakidakila ba sila
para tawaging hero?

i mean di ba mas kadakidakila
yung nasa bahay ka lang
tapos inaasikaso mo ang pamilya mo

yung nagtuturo ka kahit walang sweldo

yung nagugutom ka dahil binigay mo pagkain mo
sa mas nangangailangan

yung hindi mo tinanggap ang talent fee mo
at binigay mo sa isang charity

yung hindi ka sumusuko
kahit walang pag-asa

yung maging inspirasyon ka
dahil sa mga ginawa mo habang buhay ka..

oo na..
nandun na ako
sinave mo nga bayan mo

pero ginawa mo ba sa isang paraan
nagbenefit lahat

kahit ikaw..

di ba..

common good..

tulad ng sabi ni thomas acquinas

it doesn't have to be a sacrifice
if what you really what is the good for all..

something like that..

tignan mo..

di ba kung gus2 mo daw maging masaya ibang tao

you need to sacrifice

pero di ba...

ang isang nanay na nangangailangan ng gatas para sa anak
ay bibili sa companya ng gatas..

nabigyan niya na nga ng gatas ang anak niya
hindi pa sya nakarinig ng nakakabingin iyak ng bata
yumaman pa yung companya ng gatas

o di ba

COMMON GOOD!!

heroism..

okay no connection..

basta..

di kailangan mamatay
para masabing bayani ka

ok...

solve na ako doon

Test.... Results..... haha

2005-05-25T10:04:00.000+10:00

Your Love Style is Storge

For you, love and friendship are almost the same thing

And your love tends to be the enduring, long lasting kind

(You've been known to still have connections with exes)

But sometimes your love is not the most passionate

Leap before you look, and you'll find that fire you crave

What's Your Love Style?

Your Seduction Style: The Natural

You don't really try to seduce people... it just seems to happen.
Fun loving and free spirited, you bring out the inner child in people.
You are spontaneous, sincere, and unpretentious - a hard combo to find!
People drop their guard around you, and find themselves falling fast.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Your #1 Match: ENFP

The Inspirer

You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends.
You are also unconventional, irreverant, and unimpressed by authority and rules.
Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.
You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're qutie the storyteller!

You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.

Your #2 Match: ENFJ

The Giver

You strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and usually succeed.
Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections.
Sometimes you idealize relationships too much - and end up being let down.
You find the most energy and comfort in social situations ... where you shine.

You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist.

What's Your Personality Type?

Libra - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:

You are open minded enough to date outside your typical "type" ... successfully!

You are diplomatic - and likely to end a fight instead of dragging things out.

You are easily loyal and faithful, but only for the right person.

Your negative traits:

You're a bit gullible, and partners take advantage of you. You still may not know it.

You find it difficult to decide where to go to dinner, what movie to watch, who to date...

You have to be in a relationship, or else you just don't feel like yourself.

Your ideal partner:

A smooth talker who enjoys socializing as much as you to.

Someone classy and cultured who knows which wine to order with dinner.

Is beautiful to you - although not necessarily attractive in the traditional sense.

Your dating style:

Romantic. If your date comes bearing flowers, wine, and poetry... well, your heart soars.

Your seduction style:

Giving. Your lover's pleasure is as important as your own.

Soft and sensual - you don't like anything to be rough.

Extravagant ... your fantasy involves staying at a five star hotel with your love.

Tips for the future:

Don't be so quick to compromise in relationships - and you'll get taken advantage of yes.

Try being single for a while. Seems impossible, but you'll learn so much about yourself from doing so.

Make some decisions about your romantic life, right now. You'll be happy that you did.

Best place to meet someone online:

Platinum Romance - the best place to meet other singles who love romance as much as you do

Best color to attract mate: Green

Best day for a date: Wednesday

Get your free love profile at Blogthings.

GWENDELYN
G	is for	Glittering
W	is for	Weird
E	is for	Elitist
N	is for	Natural
D	is for	Distinguished
E	is for	Entertaining
L	is for	Luscious
Y	is for	Young
N	is for	Normal

What Does Your Name Mean?

You are

What Rejected Crayon Are You?

You Will Die at Age 76

76

You're pretty average when it comes to how you live...

And how you'll die as well.

What Age Will You Die?

hay... walang magawa...

2005-05-25T08:22:00.000+10:00

naku...
hindi pa ako naliligo..

FYI..

anyways...
may bago na akong improvements sa blog na i2....

may tagboard na sya.. [tag kayo]
may links na para sa mga blogsters...
tapos may... un lang pa la..

nothin to say ako..

nakachat ko si nina..

ayun..

haha..
masaya naman..
nakakamiss ung camp..
as in sobra..

tipong. please..
sana hindi sya natapos..

tsaka nga pa la..

sasali ako doon sa unep something
kc mapaplant sila ng puno..

kc may denuded mountain..
tapos maglilinis kami doon
tsaka magtatanim..

JUNE 3-5 sya..

gusto mo sumama..

email mo... click mo tong link
Sama ako..

ung singles for christ..
sa may mandaluyong ang organizer..

baket?

single naman ako ha...

hehe..
eto pic ng bear ko..
si teddy boar..
haha..

dalawa silang teddy boar..
si fluffy at si bilog..

haha..

kaso nasa america sila..
kaya pic lang meron ako..

huhuh..

haha..
makakapagdonate na ako ng dugo
kapag 16 na ako..
hehe..
sana 16 na ako..
di ba..

blood is life..
tsaka..
para marenovate ang katawan ko noh......

word of the day ko kahapon eh palarne meaning speak
tapos ngaun.. intromettersi.. or meddle..

haha pakilamero..
sheet.
anu ba yan...
wala talga akong magawa ngaun..

ay...

meron na.

liligo muna ako..
sige laters.....

also nga pa la..
pic ng cherry red..

grabe kakamiss talaga
as in...

//file needs 16

2005-05-24T18:27:00.000+10:00

okay...
so maybe i am rushing into things

but it is unfair..

here are the reasons why i need to be 16

i am a facilitator in the SC-CSS
i am an incoming 2nd year in DLSU
i can attend the Cathay Pacific I.W.E.
i can donate BLOOD to Red Cross
i am a black belt in taekwondo [haha.. sana kaso ulit ako eh]
i am a member of singles for christ
i am a dancer

ok fine..
so i am already a dancer
but i mean there are age requirements in the things i want to do now..

i want to donate blood
but i can..
cause im young

i want to go to lasalle na
kaso inde pa ren pwede
bata pa ako
high school pa lang

i want to be in south africa..
para naman di ba?
environmental awareness program..

pati yun sa DENR-YOUTH
kailangan 16 ka
omg.
ayoko na..

baket ba 14 pa lang ako
eh malayo pa ang october
tapos 15 pa lang ako noon

pero ok lang
enjoy muna

kc bata pa....

huhu
...[:((]

[][emotions][]

2005-05-23T15:58:00.000+10:00

the italian of that is emozione...
i am gettin the knack for this italian stuff...

earlier this day i went to my church like i always do.. [û]
and the pastor made me think about this stuff

it is something called prosperity
and it can be based in three different things...

family [the current status i mean intack or apart]
financial capacity [hey money makes the world go round]
health [many diseases are present and are developing]

kind of alright..
yup..
it is alright..

here is my list of to do's

join the center for performing arts
contact details:8210551 location:sunvalley
join the one earth organization
contact details:via online http://oneearth.org
join the LEAPS and BOUNDS [youth leadership workshop]
contact details:7508682 location:lake caliraya, laguna
go to the sponge cola gig [also the calvin outing]
location: glorietta date:May 27, 2005
night of power in the church [UCKG Cubao]
contact details:forgot[û]date:June 1, 2005
ate byang's surprise party
contact details:RA date:June 4, 2005
first day of funk [1st day of school]
location:MSHS date:June 6, 2005

okay so there is my list...
need to do everything within the 2 weeks left

OMG.. need to lose weight pa pa la..
57 na ako ngaun
dagdag 3 kg agad...
asar..
mawawala din yan..
kala nio ha...
magiging 52 na lang yan
tapos 50..
ayoko below 50
para makapagdonate ako sa RED CROSS...

hehe... [û]

also i wanna join the cathay pacific iwe..
yes i will get to that
when i'm sixteen
yup... that is gonna be a blast..
i mean africa is way cool..
i'm looking forward to that..

ok
i am sleepy na..

nyt nyt
nyt nyt...

[cielo]

2005-05-22T07:28:00.000+10:00

heaven.....
another italian word i learned today...

is there really a heaven?

some people say it is when you find the one u love
it is like heaven's touch..

some say it is the joy in life after death
the reuniting with the creator

some say when you feel the oneness
with the one you have been craving for

some say it is a perfect place
where angels sing in chorus

some say it is when you dream
and that dreams unveils in your eyes

some say it is the one who knows
the one who keeps the knowledge and the wisdom...

cielo?
quando le sentirsi al sicuro, fatale et essere innamorato Dio

isn't it right?

[aprire il cuore a solitudine]

2005-05-21T16:50:00.000+10:00

you might be thinkin what is that title all about..
it just means this phrase..
opening the heart to loneliness..

sadness can be beautiful..

loneliness is the other side of the coin...

i am so sad when it comes to the heart

i mean i easily feel happy at life and i guess i am lucky
i get to stop by and smell the flowers and see the rainbow
the feel to run around in the rain..
feelin cleansed by the heavens

but i also bruise easily

i am the person who is so sensitive
i can tell what someone feels.. and when i do know
i ask why

but no one feels my emotions...
its the disadvantage
no one knows that i am fragile and weak

i admit i dont have much problems
and i am quite a lucky girl
but i still feel incomplete
cause i am just a girl...

what could i do..

i fall down all the time
i stumble and crawl..
i cant feel my knees when i cry
and i am nervous in the zone
i always wish i could fly
when the wind passes by

seriously...

i feel lonely

and another italian phrase to end this post

[riparare a col cuore spezzato]

[glorietta gimmick]

2005-05-04T19:08:00.000+10:00

date: may 3, 2005
location: glorietta
REASON!!!!! gimmick

the day started as if the world would end. i woke up and dressed up and scooted downwards since mama didn't permit me to go.. so i dressed up and headed to the door.
then mama gave me 300 pesos..

woaw...

so i went over to mcdo where we decided to meet...

most of the people were faciz...

only me and athina were campers..
then ellard appeared out of thin air
then blossom and gil showed up

so we went to the lrt station..
nilibre ako ni ejay sa fare...[ û ]
kc ayaw ako ilibre ni gino [ :C ]

and then ellard pushed me to the lrt track..
"utang mo na sa aken buhay mo"... ['n']

wakkkkk... asar!

eh di tinulak ko den sya.. "oh yan fair na tau..." [ :D ]

[ musicality ]dito dito sa puso ko... [ /musicality ]
the song from Qpids is now ate gox and kuya rj's love song
[û]
as popularized by EJ DAVID..

si diether nasa summerslam.. YUCK!!!

enden ang inggay sa lrt.. GRABE! mga dlsu pa iyon..

tapos mrt
nilibre ko si ejay ng fare [para fair di ba? û]

naglambitin si ellard doon sa rails..
GRABE..

tapos na tamaan na ata ni Qpido sina rj at gox..
yihee...

enden..

timezone kami..

beat ejay sa racin [ yehey ]

dumating si nina.. yiheee...

enden kain sa superbowl...

libre ni ejay [mahal un ha.. infairness]

katabi ko si ate norvie
ansaya sobra...
kalog...

enden...

lakad lakad kami sa mall...

tapos nagdecide na magshoot ng hoops sila ellard...

grabe..
si gino tumatalon
si rj cool lang

si Ellard ang galing

haha...

anyways.....

namismiss ko na ang mga tao sa dlsu...!!!

SOBRANG SAYA!

[û] [dinner disaster] [û]

2005-04-15T17:38:00.000+10:00

Hey there.
Just want to share what happen with me at the beginning of this summer.
When it was the last week of the school, I had no absolute problems. Then my dad came into town. He spent a week with us and I did absolutely nothing but shop. Well, I did eat a lot more than I use too… Anyways, he didn’t know that I was studying at Manila Science High School. He thought I was some kind of freak studying at an all girls’ school inside Better Living. Well, to be honest I don’t. Maybe you would know this if you really knew me.
But I rather hide the fact.
Anyways, Lucio Tan’s daughter invited us for dinner. What was her name again? Oh great I forgot. I had to be formal. Besides the fact that I had to comply on my requirements I had to act straight forward.
Like I was some kind of NEAT FREAK. But to be totally honest… I AM NOT. So here it turns out…

You may laugh at me, but it was embarrassing.

Here it goes.

So the door was opened into this private room. I was too amazed at the structure of the room. You could see how they really used Feng Shui at this room. It was free from a lot of stuff. Free from dirt. Free from messy substances. Free from the stinky smell of unused rooms. Free from mosquito flying around. Free from smelly socks… It was totally amazing. It had this monk like golden structure with the peace sign in his left hand… My left. Wait. Ahhhh… Wait. Was it my left or his left? Oh my left. So it was his right hand doing the peace sign… Then, a girl dressed in business attire smiled at me.
“Hello, you must be Gwen”
She kind of smirked at me. Was that a smirk…? Yeah the Mona Lisa smirk kind of style. She has chinito eyes and it was hidden in those black-framed glasses. She looked around her thirties. Maybe she is in her thirties. Well, you never know. But when I replied….
BOOM.
I accidentally hit her face.
Ah.
“I’M SOOOOO SORRRY… I didn’t mean it honest”
She didn’t replied. Oh my god. Then at the table. I pulled the chair and then when I was about to sit I forgot I pulled it so I went straight on the floor. Oh my god! Then someone else went into the room. He was handsome to be frank. He had his hair in gel and he also had those chinito eyes… Around his twenties perhaps…? Maybe.. Maybe not..
“I would like you to meet my brother Michael.” The Mona Lisa smirk girl said
“Hello” He had that sort of smile that makes you want to smile back. He also had that sweet voice and that gentle tone. I don’t know. Maybe I just like the guy.
Anyways, the host asked the waiter to serve cream of mushroom. Well, I notice that the hotel had many spoons. So I grabbed the nearest spoon to the plate and used it to grab a bite… Or a sip… Then the host approached me, she was wearing a pink blouse and a formal skirt. I think she wore 2” heels in those black shoes of hers. “My dear, that spoon is used for rice.” Oh…. Spoon for rice. Then I put it down. Then used the spoon beside it. “My dear that is used for side dishes”. Then grabbed the next one beside it. “My dear that is the spoon for soup” My GOD… Look lady this is A SOUP… Then she said… “”The spoon beside that is the spoon for the appetizers”. I mean a spoon for everything. And besides, what is the difference… They are all SPOONS. The guy in front of me chuckled. Yeah right! Doesn’t mean I don’t know the spoons I am uneducated.
Argh… *Rolled Eyes*
Then the main course. It was steak and fried rice. With side dishes namely corn and carrots. What is this place? Kenny Rogers? They are spending a thousand when they could spend just six hundred and get the benefit of muffin madness… Ahrg… well, that is the part I want to skip.
This is public!!!!
Okay, well it is only the Internet.
But…
WAH.. CENSORED!
Not that I had sex or anything porno graphical ei…

[û] watchin the moon rise [û]

JD's Poem

insecurity

puso ko'y nasasaktan

escalator.tip

only.with.the.heart

-- to me --

samhain

Get to know yourself better

water.dripping

rules

STOP

three.instances

how.is.it.like.to.feel

what.is.happening.to.me

//file test

//file test

//file day september30

//file me psychology

//file op me myself and the world

//file me confessions

//file after.10.years.ago

//file oaf self.analysis

//file op comedy.of.manners

//file op ?

//file op alone

//file op pagdududa

//file op confusion

//file op 1148.na

//file op after.10.years

//file op fake.smiles

//file op life.support

//file op intermidi8.pad.paper

//file oaf people.oa

//file lpp feelin.subside

//file week july09

//file itfig sa.kanya

//file week june22

// file june 22

//file june 18 saturday

ISANG ARAW!!!

//file june 19 sunday

//file june 20 monday

//file june 21 tuesday

//file june 22 wednesday

//kAra

//file week june18

.mOndAy.

.TuEsdAy.

.wEdnEsdAy.

.tHuRsdAy.

.fReedAy.

.sAtUrdAy.

//file op swit.yet.harsh

//file lpp fear.of.losin.oneself

//file itfig may31

//file op vitale.life

//file op o.m.g

//file op eroismo

Test.... Results..... haha

The Keys to Your Heart

Your #1 Match: ENFP

Your #2 Match: ENFJ

Libra - Your Love Profile

hay... walang magawa...

//file needs 16

[**][emotions][**]

***[cielo]***

[aprire il cuore a solitudine]

[glorietta gimmick]

si Ellard ang galing

SOBRANG SAYA!

[û] [dinner disaster] [û]

[][emotions][]

[cielo]